u/Young-Warrior-00

We are creatures of wonder. The only thing we have to guide ourselves by in this world are stories that others told, tales we built upon through our own journey and stories we wrote from scratch by ourselves.

No story, myth or belief system is completely true or completely false. You are waisting your time trying to prove your mental creations ingrained in your DNA are somehow better than mine. In the grand scheme of things, it only matters if it gives you and you alone hope and a direction.

There's no tutorial to this. Whoever is selling you certainty is a big scammer and should be ignored. Not because it is 100% fake (although there's a lot of fakers out there that are just out for money) but if it worked for them, it's tailored for them and so you should at least think for a second before using someone else's toothbrush.

You can definitely use the paths someone else before you walked on but most of the time the voice will call you to join them in the bushes and you should answer them.

Life is a journey and if you don't allow yourself to experience it, you are not living. That also means making mistakes, changing your opinion and views, evolve, defend, transform. If your path looks exactly as it did 10 years ago you are running from something and that's maybe not good.

Don't force yourself to play in the absurd game of pretending. No glitter, crystals, billion of spell jars will make you more valid than simply doing the things because you enjoy it and use them to release tension.

Trust your instinct. If you feel like putting something in a bag instead of a jar or adding rose petals to a curse, fucking do it. Trust your soul to know the way. If it makes sense somewhere inside you, that's the way.

You are enough. You have to learn to accept not everything has to have sense in the moment. Things will settle and you'll see the big picture watching things unfold in retrospective.

Let your mind settle. You are enough.

This next post is based on my personal experience and should not be taken as an alternative method to therapy or meds.

So, I'm a chaos witch and my base of working is pop culture entities (for those who still don't recognise my /u lol). However, this can easily adapt to any general spirit/conceptual worship.

For the past like month I've been on the edge of, I wouldn't call it psychosis, but it's definitely off from my usual existence. Like I can still function but only because I'm one that dissociates a lot and can trust my body to keep existing like nothing happened while I'm dealing with shit. I'm still aware tho. And I have a therapist on speed dial at all times even tho I can handle it. Just in case.

So, I've started this fandom related oracle deck you can see in my Sunday posts and that helps me process a lot of stuff. Or at least figure out they're there.

People live with stories. We would not exist without them. So we're projecting stuff onto characters, spirits, gods, objects, nature, music, art and so on.

Is it disrespectful to project your issues onto a deity? No. On the contrary, they can contain whatever you come with and so make it easier to carry. There's no reason to worship/work with a spirit if you can't rely on them to carry the burden with you. Be aware that I said with you, not for you. You still have to take agency.

Spirits are the embodiment of human strengths and weaknesses. Wherever you are on this planet, the figures change their faces but never their essence which remains similar across cultures.

This is the base theory. In practice when the void started consuming my being and I was genuinely scared I will break and lose my mind, I did the only thing that would keep me sane at that moment: stopped running, turned around and embraced the fall.

In my particular situation, through which I'm still going, the fear of succumbing to nothingness was terrifying. Like the past 10 years of healing and going through hell wouldn't mean anything anymore. Fun stuff.

So I stopped and made offerings to the very thing that produced me pain. Not to make it go away, not to make it more gentle, but to allow myself to become one with it and let myself move towards healing. You can't heal when you run. You can't heal when the thing threatens you to consume you. You can only heal when you look the monster in its eyes and realise they're there to lead you further. And so you follow the call.

It's a way to recognise that hurts. That's what the pain wants. To have a voice and be listened to. You don't defeat it, you integrate it. You realise the monster you face is within you and without it you wouldn't be yourself, no matter how twisted and hurt that version of you might seem. Running away will only make it worse.

So, when you're faced with a terrifying thing, allow yourself to be curious from a safe distance, then get closer. It is helpful to see it as approaching a new spirit. You use the offerings, you read the lore, to get closer and closer with every step. The end goal is to look that force in the eyes, recognise its power but also the lesson it brings.

Who can better help you navigate a pain than pain itself?

Tips:

Project the pain onto a medium. Being it a deity, spirit (even ones you haven't really connected with before), a piece of media, art, nature, symbol. See the fear.

Make a bracelet with letters or anything you can wear that connects you with that. Speak your fear.

Use art to allow the fear join you from within, outside. Let the colors, sounds, materials give form to your fear. Listen to your fear.

Repeating patterns show you where you're stuck during the process. Don't force it. Try to see what is keeping you sticky. Understand your fear.

Fear is there. It will probably never fully go away. But neither will you. Let fear walk beside you, as a friend that sometimes whispers prayers for you to hear. Overcome your fear.

This also has to have some real life changes. Like the most important thing for me at this time was breaking down to my best friend to prove to myself that they can carry it with me and that I'm not under no obligation to be a perfect sunshine to be real, to be here and to be loved.

Peace out.