Thinking of attending a meeting
Greetings.
I have been sober for 20 days. On the last day of April, I got embarrassing, fall-down drunk, something I hadn't done in a very long time. Blacked out, and drove (something I have never done before) and it scared the shit out of me. I banged up my car pretty good on my garage.
I made a promise to my wife and to myself that I was going to clean up my act, not because of an ultimatum or anything, but because I knew I needed to.
Things were going great, but I was staying home for the most part. Last night I went out with some friends to watch a game and it was very triggering. I stayed sober, but all the questions about it from my friends were a lot for me, and the smell of booze as we watched sports and played pool... I mean, I missed it.
I didn't drink. But I did have repetitive dreams about booze last night in my sleep.
So I need a meeting.