Struggling with my cashier job because of adhd, feeling hopeless
I live in NYC, and I don’t have much work experience since I just graduated high school, but I still need to pay rent, so I managed to get a cashier job at a small business. I really put all my effort into it and I have learned a lot, I try to keep everything tidy and be a good employee but I struggle a ton with the money because of my adhd. My boss knows about my mistakes, and most of my coworkers have told me he has fired a lot of people because of them. I always pay out of pocket to cover the discrepancies, but I’m scared. I don’t really have many choices since I’m young but I really need a job, and I want to work; I really do. I want to be able to go to college and pay my bills.
I also struggle with depression, so my mental health is not the best, I’m crying my eyes out because I feel like a failure, I really don’t want to be like this, I see everyone around me and they don’t seem to struggle with numbers, but I have been like this my whole life, I don’t want to play the victim but I’m really tired.
I really need help, I’m here, just trying to think about what I’m gonna do if I lose this job, do you have any advices of what should I do? Or what kind of jobs should I take to avoid this? Please help; I really need it :(