I fear I'm s3xually frustrated and about to make dumb decisions😭
Guys...I think I've officially lost the damn plot don't know if I had it anyway 😭😂😂
So for context dating as a bigger girl has already been enough of a headache for me. Half the time you meet idiot men who think you should be kissing the ground they walk on because they're "giving the big girl a chance." Nigga please. 😮💨😂
So tell me why I've suddenly started missing the STRESS of having a man, and yes I'm hiding my face in shame😭😭😭 That's when I knew something was seriously wrong. Now it's not even the saxophones, I swear I'm hearing the whole damn orchestra getting louder. 😭😭
There's this friend I've known for years. We've been very not platonic recently. 👀😮💨 But both times we were either drunk or on some 420 energy. Nothing happened sober and it's not that I'm trying to convince myself this is going anywhere.
The problem is...I don't even think it's him I want. 😭 I think I just miss kissing someone, flirting, being touchy feely, the whole experience...even the damn STRESS. What tf is wrong with me?! 😭😭
It got so bad I caught myself thinking about online dating and shit. 🤦🏽♀️ Trust me, I'm not proud. And for what exactly? I'm not even looking for a boyfriend...or am I? IDEK at this point. 💀
Am I just ridiculously sexually frustrated? Do I get a toy and mind my damn business? Ride this out? Or is this my sign to get back into dating even though I swore I was done with these men? 😭😂
I'm self-aware enough to know I sound insane, but a couple of puffs down and Reddit seemed like a phenomenal idea. 😮💨🤦🏽♀️...also....if this makes zero sense, blame the w33d and whatever hormones my body has decided to serve me today😮💨😭