u/Zesty-Crustacean

I(22m) want to get as comprehensive blood work done to assess my health to hopefully address my brain fog among other issues im dealing with.

I do not have insurance, I'm aware I should get insurance at some point soon and will probably go

through my job

For the time being, I would like to get it done as in depth as possible & cheaply.

There is a business called any lab test now that is selling panels for $150 to $219. Would anyone know of any frugal methods to get it for cheaper?

Thank you!

My wife(22F) and I(22M) have been married for almost 3 years now with about a year of open marriage just this last year

Due to the job I chose I was not available much for my wife during our first 2 years of marriage. We didnt go out much and then we moved and I had no money to take her out and it was a horrible cycle. I was depressed and she was too and she was dealing with anemia among other mental health crises. But there is no excuse for not getting her flowers once in our relationship

I supported her many business ideas through our marriage and have tried to take her out to fun places but it has been lackluster. She has been the one planning things and the spark kind of died.

After some years of struggling we finally got her the job she wanted and things were moving in the right direction, she finally got a good boyfriend. During an argument about something I was in the wrong for i blurted out that I wanted a divorce(for the 2nd time in the relationship) and when she asked if I was serious I dodged the question knowing DAMN WELL I didnt mean it but now I've hurt her so bad and im so devastated with myself.

This isnt the first instance of me feeling not in control of myself and I hate myself so bad for messing things up because we were literally going fine.

I havent been happy necessary but not enough to split. I want a future with her.

She says she still cares about me and if I fix myself we can stay in a relationship but shes not sure if she wants me to be her main partner or secondary, but im not sure if i can handle not being her main partner in her life. But I love her so much it hurts. Im just scared shes going to replace me

we say I love you and stuff but I cant help but feel ive done so much damage I don't know how to even start this back up

How do I go about mending this relationship?