Put my baby girl to sleep yesterday - never been this sad in my life.
You never forget the dog you had in your 20’s. I’m 33 now and sobbing my eyes out but just need to let it all out I think. I haven’t lived with her for 6 years but always loved visiting my parents and seeing her. As the years got on though, walking became so hard for her. Her doggy dementia slowly took over and her world just became so small. Lost her just shy of 12 years.
A week ago Mum decided we need to let her go and I agreed. That anticipatory grief was so bad leading up to it, I cried every day. Spent a wonderful last day with her and my nephew on Monday. My nephew (2) turned to me and said “Uncle, you’re a good person” as I cried. Got lots of photos and videos of her that day too.
Then yesterday came and she had a beautiful send off at home with my parents and me. The Vet was so lovely but this is killing me inside. The doctor gave me the week off work and I’m glad because waking up this morning, my chest feels so tight and my heart so heavy. It comes and goes in waves. My best friends and I are getting some lunch today so hopefully that helps. I just keep flashing back to the appointment yesterday. She had a wonderful life I know that but gosh it just hurts.