Help- Vent- Advice- :)
Hello- I have been interested in the faith since 2019- In 2020 I reached out the Bahai # and got contacted by a local person who then had her Aunt reach out to me. Long story short- It was good a nice slow roll in and declared last year. It has now been a few years and they are great people, most Bahia I have met are pretty nice- I am in cluster that is not actually mine- I just was told out earlier this year! I am okay with that as in my area there is only one and the local community it is also a small group of us. I am very close with the couple that has been Bahai -female since hs and the male since he was 19/20. They are almost like royalty in this area.
What I am going to say next is a cumulation of issues that are mine and some that are just confusing.. But it came to a bright light this weekend. We were schedule for a casual hang- hair cuts by us and meal last minute is changed as it often does wo these two- They are not very mindful of time and knowing their schedule. So we made plans to come over on Sat for their hair cuts for both of of them - Friday was odd as there was an obvious vibe of discomfort, perhaps the plans changing were not good for them but it was to accommodate a a friend who was hurt and we were going to there place instead. Also a Link was sent to hear a very Important Bahia person speaking via a special link & Thus these two were Very insistent that we had to watch that- To boot they could NOT figure it out how get off the message off their phone so we listen through the phone- It was not hard to listen and my husband kept falling asleep. Not due top being bored He just could not hear it!! It was so hectic and not that spiritual. This important man speaking touched on current events with the current federal leaders. Full Truth I didn't quite follow and I am so sad with is happening with our country. FLASH FORWARD to the next day- I show for haircuts- they are running late and that ok but I had to work so I got it going. We were casually speaking and then this Happens... We get done and it was SO organic I mention how I feel its not ok to wreck the capitol - ufc fighting- Iran- women's right ect.. The male looks at me and say
" Conversations like these are dismantling to the faith and can cause relationships to be disengaged" I was so shocked! It was an organic conversation I had thought was between like minded friends. "
The female told there are times for elevated conversation. Honesty the Bahia buzz words are very confusing to me and kinda yucky to force people to use certain word to effetely communicate- it a very odd way Exclude people.. I got so embarrassed I adore these two and I took his declaration to heart and I a sure he just was talking. & then walked away as a two things... One he and his wife are trumpets and two I am about to disengaged from their world. I cried all day after leaving the, I was quite thankful to have work to do.. It was a really hurt time for me and I am was also confused.
I Have really engage in the Bahia world for the past 3/4 years and ,my fault I suppose in bring up politics BUT really in my defense it came VERY naturally- especially with this Bahia doctor bring up leadership!!!
I wonder now if I should walk away for a bit to educate my self - Or do I bring this up to them and see what is what... I have a feeling it affected me more then the, He was pretty flippant about the statement.
Any help/advice would be welcome. Thank YOU! ** Sorry if this a lot - I am real human who typed this NOT AI * and I am touch upset by the mis-actions of mine and theirs after getting so close for that past 3 years a lot of engagement of joy and fun times and prayers