u/Zulian_pls-end-me

Throw away post. Verovatno ce ga modovi obrisati. Al svejedno. Ja sam imao suicidne misli od ne znam ni ja. Celi me ẓ̌ivot prati taj osecaj. Nisam mislio da ću doẓ̌iveti srednju pa eto nakako sam doẓ̌iveo I to. Punim 18 u Augustu I ne znam da li ću doẓ̌iveti to. Mislim da imam makar par ok razloga zašto ne ẓ̌elim više da ẓ̌ivim. Imam neki mentalni poremećaj. Nemam diagnozu pa to ne znači ništa. Mislim da sam bipolar ili imam GPL. Celi ẓ̌ivot sam doẓ̌ivio mobing jel sam ovakaj jbg. Nisam imo "prijatelja" pre srednje. Sad kao imam al ne verujem njima. Idem u gimnaziju završavam sledeće godine. Mrzim gimnaziju svaki dan me hvata muka kad sam tu. Nisam sposoban da ẓ̌ivim "odraslim" ẓ̌ivotom. Ne znam kako se plaćaju računi. Ne znam ni gde ẓ̌ivim. Stvarno sam glup I nesposoban. Roditelji su mi u procesu razvoda. Ne mogu da razmislim o ẓ̌votu posle 18. A i ne znam da li bi ikakvi psiholog mogao pomoći. Ne bi nikome nedostajao da nestanem. Jel ne radim ništa pozitvnom stime što sam ẓ̌iv. Pravim probleme u školi itd. Ovo je glup post ali ne znam gde više da idem. Ili šta da radim. Ako iko pročita ovo hvala

Even sitting now i feal empty. Fully empty. Nothing but sadness. I cant handle this anymore. I want to roll into a ball and cry. This never ends. It only gets worse every year. Being alone being with people its all the same. Im done. Im just done. I cant bear to live any longer. Why even bother. When all there is is emptiness. I dont know if i have bld but that fit with me alot. Don't have a diagnosis so means nothing. Feal sorry for my brother but yea. Life's shit. Ill never turn 18 so thats ok.

Like the tittle said. Few weeks of life left. Doing this so if they go through my phone they can read this.

These people are not my friends. They're fake. Liars. Ive wasted 3 years on them. Ive wasted 3 years. Ill be done in a year and ill have NOTHING. Nobody. I have Nobody. And will have Nobody no mater what. I should just die

The usual spill. I dont have any friends. I hate my life, working, my body ect. Im perverse and I think im a danger to other people. If i live to long I might just hurt others. I cant let that happen. So will be killing myself. Nobody cares if a shit stain like me dies anyway

Im in Czechia right now on a school trip. Nobody cares if I disappeared right. Everyone will be ok. Nobody will notice. Im ok. I just want to leave. Please let me leave. I want to go. I want to cry. Why does everyone hate me. I know I did some stupid stuff but why cant I even get the bare minimum of humanity. Why . Mom Why. Why did you give birth to me to live like this. Mom. I wana go home. Im a kid. Allways have been. Please just someone help me.

I dont have many friends. Im not even sure i have a reak friend. Im not any anyone's priority and nobody bothers with me anyway. Im not smart nor capable of liveing and paying bills. Im scared. I feal like a little kid even now. Mentally i have stopped developing after 11-12. I just cant. Im a unlikeble person who just lives couse pain is scary. Im sorry to anyone who'll feal sad becouse of me not being here anymore but its ok. I'd be happy gone. Meaby if I did die someone would notice I was even here. Meaby. If nothing i just want to force them to think about me for a minute or two. Just that. I want them to feal atlest slightly guilty. That would make me happy. I am a bad person. I do deserve to die. I should had died like my unborn brothers. Im awful. I wish someone would love me atlest once before I go. Just for a moment. So I feal something. If there's anyone reading this. Please get help. Don't end up like me. My 18th birthday is soon. August 30th. I wont be alive then. I feal sorry for my well everyone who even bothered lerning my name. I want to hug my mom or just something thats warm. Im sorry

Im a very shitty childish unpleasant person. I was a mistake and I should be suicidel. Thats what I deserve. Liveing this long was a mistake

Ill probably kill myself soon. I cant live anymore. Im a horrible horrible person. Ill be free soon. Ill be ok. Just a little while longer. I'll be ok. Ill be ok. Just 2 more months.

I only couse trouble for other. All I ever do is negative. Me being born was the worst thing that could happen. Im 18 in 3 months and I cant let that happen. I cant let myself live that long