u/ZygomaticDuck

When I was younger, I had two close people in my life abuse me. I know I’m not broken, and I’ve been to therapy, but every now and then, I get that thought that everyone around me hates me or wants to do something to me. Even though I know it’s not true. The worst part is the aftereffects. I’d be perfectly fine if I wasn’t sexually active, but I’m hyper-sexual. It’s like it disgusts me but feels like I should do it anyway. I hate being touched sometimes and especially hate hugs. Sometimes all I can think about is what happened and how I want to protect others from that. It has gotten better with therapy, but my flashbacks still bug me sometimes. I’ve learned to control them when they start so I don’t go into full episodes.