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Bucket of bummer ass album, I mean am I right? I think it's a beautiful album, I love it but what a depressing ass album. It's misery in every corner of that joint, n some of the shit is said so casually that it's like damn. I got like halfway through that joint the first time and I almost started to feel bad lol, I mean damn. Keyword is almost lol he gon be aight but some of the shit he says on this project is sadder than fuck. He ain't lie when he said it was gonna be dark, "3 hours of bleeding" and all that

"Slim screaming don't do it while tears fall on a glock nine" "Skipped the talk bout the birds and bees, I found out in the worst way" "The one pill I can't swallow is that I can't help my father" "Been waking up with blood on my sheets. So stressed, I bleed when I sleep" "Every time she get pregnant, God take away my kid" "Let go and let God, it's the let go that I can't" "If letting go the price, I can't afford it" "If letting go the price, the only chance I had was stolen" "Emotions get to running, so I get to running" "Just confirmed my worst fear, that I'm not enough" "One minute it's me tryna put down the act, next minute it's lights camera action" "Ask anyone who know me, bet I'm their favorite trophy" "Hang me in your favorite place, invite all your friends, I won't skip up on my only chance to be loved (or something along those lines)" "The family and homies infecting my spirit, my studio filled up with urns" "I'm forever trapped inside of the hero they demand" "God sized hole I'm seen through" "If momma said don't talk to strangers then who do I speak to?" "Think momma popped one too many, can't understand what she texting" "Guess I was meant for some great things but never meant for loving" "Been that way since a child, boy, you'll never be enough" "Truth looking right in my eyes like what you gon do about it? Run away boy, run away" "So lost even God can't find me" "I can't blame them, can hardly look at myself" "It's all a show like I've been booking myself" "Is it really dying if I never had a moment I could breathe?" "It's hard to believe that they don't love me so to breathe I tell myself lies" "Daddy seen my face, said where'd I go wrong" "I'll probably die when I finally get a moment I can breathe" "Another sealed deal just to feel I need more, till I saw my brother blue in his wife's arms" "Body pass out before it let me cry" "Love come with interest, they just lenders now" "(told his dad) I turned your name into a dynasty, all it took was everything I had inside of me"

Seriously you could write an encyclopedia with all the sad shit on this project, this is a few

You remember back in the day when Scrim used to compare himself to Jesus all the time?? "Bitch I'm Jesus" "Ask in yo city, they'll tell you I'm Jesus" "Trailer park shawty but them white folks think I'm Jesus" "Fuck your God, I'm your God" "You think you the one but I'm the one they call Jesus" and shit like that, SO many others, but he was saying it kinda like "Yeah I'm that shit". Shit, he even named himself Yung Christ on his social media handles, twitter and IG are both some form of Yung Christ or Suicide Christ. Right, but this isn't my entire point. In recent albums, (Via Crucis and Runaway) Scrim almost talks about the whole God thing and being looked at as a God as a bad thing. It's something he doesn't want to be seen as anymore. But now it's kinda something he just is and almost has to be in a sense. Now he goes "Had to tell them that I'm not no savior cause they treatin me like a God now", "I am not your savior", "God size hole I'm seen through" and many more. And it's kinda the same thing that Kendrick was speaking about. They show him wearing the crown of thorns because he's seen in that lense, almost as a God or a savior. Kendrick talks about that savior complex often. Now Scrim is dealing with similar shit. Can't lie, people do treat that man like he's God himself and I know he feels a little bit of that savior complex especially when it comes to his family and shit and feeling like he has to save or help people, to be the person that everybody needs, to fix things, to break bread with people he "should've starved", to give everything that he can give so that other people are straight. He talks a lot about this on runaway, that he gives all that he has till there's nothing left, that people rely on him heavily and he feels that responsibility to make sure everybody's straight and that's a lot of pressure for 1 person. Now, he pops out talking about "I'm not your savior". I don't even remember what song he said that on but I remember him saying something close to or potentially even verbatim "I'm not your savior" and it stuck out to me.

People have been saying he's carrying the whole Jesus aesthetic now and I kinda see it but I also think he's just a white brunette man with long hair and a beard and I think people will say anybody is carrying a Jesus aesthetic if they look like him lol. They just see him walking around dressed like a hobo with his hair and beard and immediately say he's trying to be Jesus lol. I think what it is is that he's doing the shit a lot of rich people start doing at some point, they just stop caring too heavily about appearances or at least act like they don't care and everything's just "raw" and "effortless" and all that crap. He was saying he was too locked in for a haircut and I know he's a busy man but that has to be cap lol. You can get a haircut if you want one lmfao it does not take that fucking long. There's always time to get your hair cut. But I also think he just thinks he looks good lol there's no need to change anything he has going on. Regardless of what yall are saying I think it looks great and I'm sure he likes it and I'm sure his wife loves it. But from what I said previously I think the Via Crucis album cover is very symbolic and not him literally tryna say he's Jesus like a lot of people were saying when the album was coming out. But he speaks on Via Crucis and on Runaway about "carrying his cross" "Picking up my cross on the way of sorrows" "Picking up my cross, like how the fuck was Jesus moving this?" Long story short just talking about the weight, responsibility and pressure that he has to carry, all that kinda shit. Even if he was actively portraying the Jesus aesthetic like he was on the Via Crucis album cover, I'd understand where he's coming from because it would obviously be a very symbolic thing and he obviously does not view himself as a god or anything like that I'd think

He used to talk about the whole Jesus shit, saying he was him or that people saw him as Jesus as in "People worship me, I'm that guy, I'm their god, I'm him" and now he mentions being seen as a god as like "I have to amount to all these people's expectations of me, I'm taking care of everybody, no matter what I do it's never enough because I can never fit that god sized hole they see me through because I am just a man." And at the end of the day, he's just a man. He talks sometimes about wanting to be seen as him and not as whatever they think he is or whatever they want him to be, one track he said something like "One minute I'm tryna put the mask down next it's lights, camera, action" and overall yeah man. On the live he talks about wanting to just be him instead of a "shape shifting chameleon" that adapts to fit everyone else's expectations and needs. He also talks about feeling like he isn't enough, feeling like he's wrong no matter what he does, feeling the need to please everybody but it never happens because it's impossible to do all that kinda shit. Overall pretty depressing but yeah. Thanks for coming to my ted talk and overanalyzation session.