Terrified because I dont know if my symptoms mean I have it, please help
Dislciamer that this is poorly written due to another condition i have called paws/pws and kindling and screens are vwry hard for me atm alongside a bad headache. But any and all help is greatly appreciated as i am genuinely terrified out of my mind and desperate for advice and an answer rigjt now since i get gaslit at home about health things often, have very severe medical trauma, and can not affordan unnecessary visit to an er, urgent care, etc if it turns out to be nothing.
6 days ago i started having pain almost cramping (think female anatomy period cramps) in lower right just above pelvis abdomen area almost overy but was and am not on my period and haven't been for a couple days.
Pain is like cramping and comes and goes but has been here mlst of thw day radiating to lower back mostly right side sometimes and bowel movements didnt help and it didnt help much could it be because of my shitty unsupportive couch. It went on like this for abiut four ish days with periodic pain in the same area and lower abdomen in general currently and afterwards.
Ive had this pain before but its been on or before my period and ive been having lower abdomen/pelvis area pain. My mom said it was nothing and to watch ir and kept saying that despite it getting a lot wprse over the enxt few days and said maybe its gas idk it hurts and seems almost related to the stupid couch i havw as in pain gets worse jn my usual position and better for a bit in another then worse again, same with my shitty bed. What do i even do, ive never had this before and my parents hevaily gaslight me when it comes to medical things and pain and i cant have pain killers or surgery (very riskybfor multiple factors) or antibiotics due to my condition.
My dr sucks and constantly brushes me off and has for wuite some time and gynecologist is weeks out im fucked. The pain is still here days later i am literally having right aide/ovary area pain as i type in cramping waves not consistent and not horrific and mot as bad as a few days ago. Maybe its because i was eating like two somewhat unripe bananas a day for other health reasons i wont get into or because i tried quinoa for the first time a day before but idk why it would last this long it juat dpesnt make sense to me and im cared our of my mind.
It hurts ahen i move sometimes and this couch is hell, my body is hell due to chronic pain and im scared. I know its not pregnancy im asexual dont have parenter never will and havent for years as i am sex repulsed so that is not an option.
No fever i think but hot very cold earlier tonigjt like shivering for a while gut it only lasted a few minutes and the ac wasnt on nor a fan and i had a blanlet on. No vomiting still hungry abdomen is fine i think and the pain is mostly still crampy and somewhat constant but in waves sometimes my lower pelvis/abdomen hurts too. It was nevwr my belly button but my stomach in geberal has started hurting and idk if its bc im anxious terrified or not but the cramping is getting worse somewhat mkre painful im scared really scared
I am having back pain too but my couch is shitty af and unsupportive and due to my chronic pain from paws/pws ans kindling i sit all day bur ive been in pain (back started day doue and has been on and off). But getting off the couch doesnt help. I tried sitting on the floor and even standing on day four and it didnt change anything it just still hurt. Right noe im sitting and i havent eaten anything in a few hours so maybe thats where the pain is coming from but idk im bloated and in pain again and my right side just keeps bugging me.
The pain is still here but less so and on night four (i think?) it was almost heavy like bloaty feeling when i layed down on my left side trying to sleep and it hurts to like strain/try and pass gas/bpwel movement if it doesnt want to happen, like the muscles hurt afterward so idk if thats at all related, but even that isnt too consistent tbh. I doubt im consipatrd ive been having a movement every day or every other day so idk.
It gurts now and ive been trying to sit differently bc i do rhink that is part of it and im wondering if it could be bc my thyroid was low in my latest blood test could ir be period studf even tho im not bleeding si that may be related? It seems to get worse as the day goes on especially around evening and night time for some reason or ocassionally afternoon.
Im bloating all the time without reason i can tell, it hurts still and i had a sudden sharp wave that lasted a few seconds in my lower abdomen in general a while ago and my right side still huets sometiems and it was left yesterday too. But its my right side i worry about sinxe it keeps coming in waves likw cramps.
Im so scared what do i do my dr is out of town this isnt normal sone ppl have the condition with symptoms like mine but im so scared pls i need any and all help possible and im aorry this is rambly and probably repetitive im doing the bwst i can with what little i have through braibfog and pain and terror. I did call the on call dr a few days ago when ir was wkrse and he said i should go to urgent care despitw it not being an option at the time and qas very dismiasive of everything else i said then talked to my mom and she said im fine and ahe and dad will just keep an eye on me we dont have the money for this.
I cant just go to the er for this, we dont have the money and i highkey have anxiety and borderline panic attacks thinking abt it and i know every other time ive went it was nothing but im just like freaking out bc the pain has never lasted this long or been like this outside of my period and i dont want to die. But im not running a fever or sick or anything i keep getting when i google symptoms and as such my parents dont beleive me and think im being crazy so idk if its just anxiety and stuff.
My parents r leaving soon so i cant go to the er itll make them stay home and atress them (also major trigger for my mom and sister) im just like idk really freaking out bc there is literally no way to know and i dont want to die but a surgery basically wpuld kill me given my paws/pws and kindling rn and im bad with anesthesia and recovery seems like a nigjtmare bur the main thing is i do mot want to die and have no idea what to so. The at home tests havent really helped or proven anything and im genuinely desperate, please.
I will be unablw to have any kind of pain medication or medication at all due ro my condition and general sensitivities so im genuinely terrified that this is the end for me tbh. There doesnt seem to be a way our and im terrified and just need help desperately.
Really shitty modle from google unclued but i circled where the pain is when i say right side, !nd everything diagnal of that is included in the lower pain i talk about too.