Don’t know how to process
Hi, new to this kinda thing but I’m struggling. I’m non binary myself but my girlfriend just came out as trans (ftm). I pretty much knew it would be a thing, and saw it coming but I’m not interested in men. She also specifically stated I get “special privileges” and doesn’t want to my bf and wants me to continue using she, girlfriend, etc. I had this whole life planned with her and now it feels like it’s being shredded in front of me. Leaving her in not an option, I love her too much and want her to be happy way too much. But I don’t know how to process things? Socially, mentally, physically all of it is stressing me out bad. I just don’t want to lose the person I fell in love with. I’m scared she’ll become unrecognizable to me or that she’ll decide it’s easier to start over fresh with someone who doesn’t know any different.
Being that I’m non binary I feel like this shouldn’t be as stressful as it is, and I feel terrible. I know I’ll never stop loving her, but I’m terrible with change and am just so scared for the future. I have no one to talk to.