u/___Benzene___

i’m 30 year old female, 145 pounds 5’8”. history of hashimoto’s thyroiditis.

on sunday i tore a muscle badly in my right arm from work. it hurt so bad and ive been bedbound for a week. during the painful healing period, it was hard to sleep. i kept being woken up by the pain. it started with sleeping for four hours a day, then three, then 2, then 1. the pain has finally subsided to a more tolerable level but now there’s something wrong with my brain. every time i try to fall asleep my brain panics, its like its learned that it needs to not let me sleep or i’ll die. i looked it up and it seems to be an extreme version of a hypnic jerk, a nocturnal panic attack. i have been living in bed now for a whole other reason, and that is to fall asleep. I was prescribed 500 mg naproxen for my musce pain, which helps but doesnt help the sleep. nighttime nyquil doesnt help either. i’m 30 year old female, 145 pounds 5’8”. history of hashimoto’s thyroiditis.

on sunday i tore a muscle badly in my right arm from work. it hurt so bad and ive been bedbound for a week. during the painful healing period, it was hard to sleep. i kept being woken up by the pain. it started with sleeping for four hours a day, then three, then 2, then 1. the pain has finally subsided to a more tolerable level but now there’s something wrong with my brain. every time i try to fall asleep my brain panics, its like its learned that it needs to not let me sleep or i’ll die. i looked it up and it seems to be an extreme version of a hypnic jerk, a nocturnal panic attack. i have been living in bed now for a whole other reason, and that is to fall asleep. I was prescribed 500 mg naproxen for my musce pain, which helps but doesnt help the sleep. nighttime nyquil doesnt help either.

i have a history of panic attacks, and take 50mg zoloft for them. but i have never had nocturnal panic attacks specifically surrounding sleeping like this. I also haven’t struggled with panic attacks in years since taking my zoloft. i also have a history of trauma regarding sudden and traumatic death with family (accidents and murder.)

i’m suffering so much i just want this to end. its torture. i would rather be throwing up everywhere or broken a bone. I have been awake for 48 hours now and even before that i was running on about 7 hours of sleep across 5 days total. my entire day revolves around being in bed and trying to get to sleep.
i have a history of panic attacks, and take 50mg zoloft for them. but i have never had nocturnal panic attacks specifically surrounding sleeping like this. I also haven’t struggled with panic attacks in years since taking my zoloft. i also have a history of trauma regarding sudden and traumatic death with family (accidents and murder.)

i’m suffering so much i just want this to end. its torture. i would rather be throwing up everywhere or broken a bone. I have been awake for 48 hours now and even before that i was running on about 7 hours of sleep across 5 days total. my entire day revolves around being in bed and trying to get to sleep. there is a chance i may be experiencing some paradoxical insomnia at times but obviously its hard for me to tell if thats the case.

i considered going to the emergency room and maybe asking for a few benzodiazepines to fix this. ive never taken them before, im not a person who struggles with addiction and i dont want to take them forever, i just want one to put me to sleep so i can be free. please help.