Should I put myself out there?
I (26F) have never had a boyfriend or any type of relationship. I am certain I am a demi sexual as i have seen how my friends and people around me perceive attractiveness and feelings as opposed to how i do.
I am a person with lot of hobbies and interests, i enjoy new places and new experiences. I am in the middle of a job change which gives me more work life balance. My idea is to focus on myself and my growth, hitting the gym, reading, learning guitar so and so. And i want someone who also functions independently with their own hobbies and interest and be happy for each others achievments.
But my family is pressuring me for marriage and i don't blame them. All of my cousins are having babies and my parents feel that is a milestone i am not willing to give them.
From my side to find a person to marry, it is going to take me more than just a few weeks to decide. I am thinking it will take 2 -3 years of spending time and understanding about each other to even be sure about marriage with that person. So that means arrange marriage is out the window and my family is accepting of love marriage.
Is what i am asking too much?
I am thinking i would rather be single then choose someone who i would not be happy with. Even if it dissapoints my family, i am the one who has to live through my life. I cant tell if i am self aware or just completely wrong and confused.