Fake sex as a fictional character with my allo bf
So, I just found out very recently about my asexuality and even more recently that the specific label I relate to is aegosexual, I don't need to explain myself but I've always lived my sexuality through media, fictional characters, stories and so on, but there's an aspect of it that idk if anyone can relate to, because it is very physical without it getting explicitly sexual.
Basically me and my boyfriend have always been sharing our love for fiction, and ever since we were teens we liked interpreting said characters for fun even in real life. Growing up, these real life roleplays got an explicit turn of course, but in a very specific way. We don't actually have sex during these roleplays, our genitalia do not touch or get touched (that would be awful) and there's never orgasms involved, but we pretend to have sex as said characters emulating sexual intercourse. This is the only way I genuinely enjoy having to do with something related to sex. I can seem to be only interested in the idea of it if I live it through someone else's eyes, and I am in no way part of it, both physically and mentally, it's truly like detatching my whole persona. Thinking of myself in a sexual scenario is a complete turn off and if I didn't love my boyfriend very much and we hadn't found a satisfying deal to keep our relationship going, I wouldn't want to deal with it EVER in my life as myself.
Has anyone over here ever had similar experiences? Or is even the idea of directly non-sexually touching or kissing as another character too disturbing? (Maybe I've been doing it for so long that I seriously detatch myself in that pleasant way, almost as if I'm the director of my own smut fanfiction).