I can’t stop porn
I honestly don’t know what to do anymore, so I decided to post here because I don’t feel comfortable talking to anyone I know in real life.
I’ve been addicted to porn for around two years, and I’ve tried so many times to quit. Every time I think I’m making progress, I end up falling back into it. People always say things like “go for a walk” or “take a cold shower when you get an urge,” and I really have tried stuff like that. The problem is that even if I distract myself for a little while, my mind is still stuck on it. It feels like once I got addicted, I dug myself into a hole that I can’t climb out of.
The worst part is what this addiction has done to my mental health. I’ve had thoughts about hurting myself, and I’ve acted on them before. I’ve also had suicidal thoughts, and that’s honestly scary to admit. I feel like this addiction is slowly ruining the way I think, and I’m terrified it’s going to affect my future, my relationships, and the person I want to become.
I know some people will probably tell me to “just stop,” but if you’ve ever dealt with an addiction, you know it isn’t that simple. I genuinely want to quit. I hate that this has become part of my life, and I don’t want to keep living like this.
I’m posting here because I don’t know who else to talk to. It’s just too personal to tell people I know, and I feel embarrassed and ashamed. If anyone has been through something similar and actually managed to recover, I’d really appreciate hearing what helped you. Right now I just feel stuck, and I don’t want this addiction to control the rest of my life.
Thanks for reading.