Peace out.

Good hair days make me lose my shit!! And this songgg-

I'm gonna pack my things and leave you behind This feeling's old, and I know that I've made up my mind I hope you feel what I felt when you shattered my soul 'Cause you were cruel, and I'm a fool, so please, let me go-But I love you so

When he can't stop touching my hair and puts his fingers through my strands, it gets stuck in a tangle, and I go- "Ouch, it hurts" He kisses my hair, and I say, "It's the scalp that hurts, dummy", then he pulls me close and kisses my head as I chuckle- we call em silent apologies.

When he lies down in my lap, and a soft breeze hits us, my dry fking ends brush against his face; he scrunches his nose and breaks out a soft giggle- that makes my heart flutter.

When he insists on sitting behind cuz my wet hair reminds him of the day we lost ourselves in the rain-the laughter, soaked clothes, the world that had blurred into nothing but just us.

He who? T-T

I'll get a buzz cut like Angelina Jolie if I stay single after 30.

Guys this happened 2 days ago kani brush eskuntunte gurochindhi.

So everybody was going home from clg, my frd/benchmate asks for her bag. Like nen bench corner ki unna, i was sitting and the bag was on the floor, i lift it w one hand and put it on the bench. Like bicep curl w my right hand.

Mind you, 3 frking girls were visibly shocked.The bag owner girl goes- atla etla lift chesnav?? .Omg asal entha aura moment.

I didn’t k girls were this simple, I shapeshift as a male every two hrs, maybe that's why. These girls need to chill.

Ushh jus make the next Giga Chad.

Btw morning ladies- *throws a rose**😏

Ninna night nana call chesindu,

I don't talk to him on daily basis, my sister does. Akkaki eyyu ani oka tone la annadu. My sis did- enni marks ochinnai ani asked even tho he knew. I said and endk antha takkuva ochinna ankunta class pekindu- i told him the paper was like that and all the classmates score around mine only ani.

Then he goes- nenu unnadhi nikosam eh ga, peddadhanivi ainav kani ardham cheskuntalev.Okkavella niku seat osthe naku tension undadhu.

Idk wht to say nenu um um anukuntane unna, i was scrolling on the phone the other hand- naku dhukkam ostunde but mom was in the same room and i hate crying infront of her.

Nen untundhi ni nikosam eh ani he repeated thrice in the convo. My mom says seat osthe rani lekapothe ledhu- I can tell your standards, stress theskoku ani.

At that time it felt like a relief kani eppudu i feel like I'm not her acheiver elder daughter anymore. Chinnapadi nunchi she forced me get good grades and i did too. My parents always said- nethoni asal maku problem ledhu. Kani when he said- seat osthe tension undadhu- felt like he was worried abt my grades.

I just want to go into their laps and cry my heart out and tell I'm sorry for not being their ideal daughter i have never been,for giving them hopes and now acting like this. I'm shattering their hopes and I'm the one who feels the pain.

How do I let them know i don't want a high earning job, they gave me freedom to choose whatever I want. I did, i did with the intentions of being happy, interested in it and not to make an income from it. I just want to wake up thinking abt what's for breakfast not about wht I need to work on.

The worst part is my parents didn't yell at me for that. They both talk to me calmly abt grades and career. My sources are good too. That's makes ME the problem.

Do I even deserve all these little happiness, I want them to scold me, hurt me- i can't take the fact that I'm the bad person in this whole thing. It's not abt grades. It's the fact that their depending on me for their future. I wish i wasn't the elder one. I wish i wasn't their daughter. We both don't deserve eachother.

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Long fking rant, up-post and scroll bbg!

I woke up today feeling hopeless romantic. I was giggling to this song-when we're apart and I'm missing you, I close my eyes and all I see is you, all the small things you do...

Probably because I am having a good hair day. It's long, fluffy and clean. But again, I had to put it in a stupid braid and go back to stupid college.

In a way, I saw this dude. He was in his teens, like 17 to 20. He wore a blue navy t-shirt, his white shorts, and his hair was long enough for his front strands to touch his ears. Then his t-shirt was simple. He wore glasses which were clear blue, and I didn't notice his slippers, lol. He was smiling big and was walking carefree, literally jump walking. And I swear if it wasn't for me, people would think he's crazy. He might be? I wished I was him at that moment.

Idk when I had a proper breakfast. My mornings always feel like a race no matter how early I wake up. I am getting sick of this life. Sometimes I feel like a 15k salary would be enough for me, a tiny life would do, but at the same time, I know I deserve better things, but I also wish to be happy as him.but I also think I'm capable of a lot more things.idk.

It's not so bad, to be honest. My lecturers are fun. I do have friends that I laugh with every day, and in lunch, I sit alone. First I felt pity for myself. Then I found peace in solitude. Bunch of friends call me to join their group, but I only vibe with them and not the group. I would rather stay alone than be in a group feeling like an odd one who begs for context.Now I'm looking forward to lunch every day. It's so peaceful, and I'm appreciating food more and feeling genuinely grateful. It's like my self-reflection time, and I'm loving it.

Omg this was supposed to be a happy post, full intellectual kind aipoindhi.Eroju mummy chesindhii curry asal peaks unde. Andd oh ma chem sir absent, inkaaa...

Emo guys nen eroju happy actually. Until this guy said saagadeeyaku in my replies but nvm.

If you read this till the end- ily.

Edit-Sorry guys i forgot abt potatoessss, here-🥔🥔🥔🥔

Guys naku july ochedanka telvadhu mummy bday july 3rd ani and one day left. Em plan cheyyale- she had a rough year so far. Materialistic things nachavu because i buy it from her own money anyways. So gng I decided to make a video song- like me and my sis singing and a silly lil dance choreo. Like we only got Tomorrow and i need some banger chatpata lyrics(I'll try too but need manpower). Make it cringe asf I want her to laugh sm that she forgets her prob and her own existance while watching it. Pleasee help. Coughx2** almost dying**

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No context, i jus need a therapist! Kindly ignore the post

Edit- dw cht, I'll vent to cgpt. Edit2- It's raining asf Edit3- i jus realised I'm low on estrogen.

Incident 1:

Me: amma, ma class boys chala manchollu, asal girls ni kanethikuda chudaru.

Mum: >!atlantolle nallikutla mundakodukulu untarr!<

Bruhh i am a literal teen, asal nathoni puttukuna antha matannadhi. I was cracking my ass up lol. Still shocked asf🤧

Incident 2

Mom: thaginava endhi?

Me: avuna mummy manchiga anipisthadhi, chathila manduthadhi.. tagabuddaitundhi

Mom: nak kuda.

Me: ni mokam tagutav

Mom: ma daddy naku posechindhu thi.

Me: ma daddy kuda nak posechindu thi.

Mom: ma daddy nak pranale teesechindu😤

Mom-1 me-0

Incident 3

Mom: aithe monna class la adigina males ni bachelors antar ga females em antar ani.

Me: bachelori Me: bisleri?

Mom: oka student virgin annad.

Me: uff eh kalam pillalu, nen kudu ah age la chinnadhanni em kad le.

Mom: aina charging switch eyyarad ga.

Mom-2 me-0

Me hits mom and she hits back* joking le ofc.

Mom: nak inka nostundhi nik nosthale?

Me: nen part time moggonnee(male)

Mom: abba atlanake uke nak bayamitundhi

Me: ehh gatla gad eh

Mom: emo full karch aithadhi, atla em led ga

She thinks am into girls😭

Incident 4:

Mom: sadhukoo

Me: nuvvu pothe sadhukunta, me and my zoology textbook needs privacy

Mom puts her cringe expression*

Me: pedda peddolai untai chupiyyalna??😝

Me finally-1 mom-0

She's a cutie patootie😘

Gawhhh I am so excited for 1 yr anniversary now, I am so grateful for getting reddit. I knew it since many years but i thought only people post intellectual stuff because of google. Butt I met lots of relatable posts and replies here.

People here constantly try to make eachother feel better and I absolutely love it. It a whole kindness disaster.

Shoutout to ppl who are always commenting on my posts and making me feel seen. I really wanna take out usernames kani idk them personally nor do I talk to them. But just so u know- I appreciate you guys so much.

That reminds me of this dude always chronically online-He called himself "gaalinakoduku" but I call him- friendly neighborhood redditman.(again I can't mention the username cus we don't talk on daily basis)

Anyways..

Come on pillalu, wish cheyyandhii...

Felt cute, might delete never.

Hi :)

Ink sketching botheeee💥 Art block who??

I do it😭😭

I change my voice person to person, scene to scene,action to action,literally every 5 mins. Why?? I like being dramatic🥀🥀 please don't hate me😔😔

Ahh nen edusthaaaa...

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*Insert duck sound*😝

Sezy Modieyy to assert dominance**

This happened yesterday morning, i was happy for a while. Soo this my first comic- anteee it is comic-ish...ryt pillaluu??

I drew this in like 10 min and recorded for 30😭

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Well, is this tuff gng?

There was this lil event - so this was guy and I were really good frds. Ante we used to treat eachother like bros.(later i found out he had a crush on me), so in that event- I had to dress up- everything was fine that day. The next day- the other mutual guy tells me that guy said- look at her smtg, and bff also said that he was staring at smtg and stuff. Like it's okay if he had a crush but looking in disgusting way at the girl u were laughing and highfing to yesterday is just gross.

I didn't k wht to do back then. I talked to him but I maintain my distance (physically). And when he found out that i knew- he thought it was just abt crush ig- he started hitting on me- that all passed.

Incident 2

Same, him and I were frds.One day we randomly started flirting and realized we actually had crush on eachother. Few days later- I put a story and he replies- I can't wait for the 🕳day(seg day- he used that emoji)

Like i wanted that cute teen love or just a genuine frdship. I know y'all be like not all guys- dude it's always a guy cuz else can do it?

Good job guys, u read my post soo well here-🥔🥔

Tldr : You guys are bro-coded but he goons behind your back

DOMS- delay onset muscle soreness.

Gawd like today, I had a class continuously for 2 hrs and i couldn't stand afterwards like all my frds looked at me weird.

I feel weirdly insecure to tell them i workout because once in class, my sir took an example of lifting weights as a girl and all girls went chhhiiii

I was like The fk bish- i lift every week and u fking laugh w me and don't find that gross. Idk i feel like they would judge me and i would be an outcast soo....

Well fk em- I am gonna be strong as hell.