Moving out and I'm worried
Basically the title.
I don't know exactly what is wrong with me but I feel really dissociated a lot of the time and have since I was (reportedly) a child . This affects me daily, obviously, but I have noticed how much worse it is during times of self isolation.
I'll be moving out soon and living on my own and I'm just worried I'll get lethargic and depressed. I'm very much a "roll with the punches" for most things and consider myself pretty stable, but this is the first time I've worried that my mental health will actually ruin my life instead of just being an inconvenience that makes me slower at tasks or thinking.
It's the first time where "I'm sure it'll be fine" doesn't really do much for me. I'm super thankful for my family for keeping me grounded without knowing it, and I'm glad people I care about are only a call away, but there's a lot they don't know that would just be hard to explain.
I had a pretty bad incident while driving because of my hallucinations about 2 months ago, and that was the first time that my own issues had actually been life-threatening for myself and others. It hasn't been that bad since, but now that that IS a possibility, I'm even more worried. That on top of the dissociation makes me concerned.
This isn't horribly comprehensive, there's a lot on my mind right now. I am excited to move out and have that freedom, but I also have started to learn my limits in the past year, and I'm worried that this will push me to those limits. Idk