My boyfriend just told me he doesn't want kids
I was having a nice conversation with my boyfriend. I (kinda) jokingly said that we should get engaged, since it's something I dream of. He said yes, but then he told me that he didn't want kids.
At least for now, he is decided that he does not.
We've been together since we were 14, we are both 19 now. We've been together for almost 5 years and he knows that I want to be a mother one day, because I want to take care of my children the way I wasn't taken care of.
This broke me.
This made me rethink everything.
I don't know what to do.
And, for the cherry on top, he once (2022, when we were 15 and I was really unstable due to *BPD*),** **he told me he didn't ser me as the mother of his kids.
That made me feel sick at that time.
I've reciently been diagnosed with ADHD. And now he said the same thing; "I think I don't want you to be the mother of my kids if you're like this. I do think that in the future (some years) you will change because you'll learn to cope with your problems". It's true! I know I'll be better.
But... why...
Now that we are "older", I really thought we had the same plans, as he knows I want this and we've been making plans for our future. We plan on moving together next year.
I love him, he's my favourite person. He is my real family.
All seems to be falling off a cliff now.
I don't know what to do, and I don't really have someone to speak about this to.