I’m not sure what I’m seeking
Hello 36 yo who is currently 6 weeks pregnant (using my husband’s account). Struggling with tormenting anxiety and haven’t had more than a few hours of sleep a night in the past 12 days. I do have mental health professionals onboard. I have uncontrollable thought spirals surrounding fetal abnormalities and developmental issues (with no hard evidence to support this would happen, no immediate family history) and not wanting the possibility of being a life long caretaker. On top of the general fencesitting I did for years. I generally feel like I’m supposed to want this… but keep circling back to I wish this never happened. Thinking about not carry this pregnancy to term.
Has anyone gained this clarity by actually getting pregnant? Thoughts?