I[32F] found out I’m pregnant with boyfriend[30M] and I’m terrified this is a huge mistake
Me\[32\] him \[30\]Sorry if this sounds immature because it probably is and I’m coming out of fear. I just found out I’m pregnant because I missed my period despite being on contraceptive. I haven’t told my boyfriend yet. I’m absolutely terrified and in shock. We’ve talked about having a kid but in 2-4 years thing. We’ve only been in a relationship for a year and live together and we love each other and are spending we each day so happily together.
I feel like we’re in such a happy and loving time with each other, I really don’t want this pregnancy to ruin everything. And the next time we enjoy this type of freedom and bliss would be in 15 years when we’re old and burnt out. And I look at my dad’s pictures and it’s so depressing when I see his happy picture when he was handsome while I was a baby and deep frowns building up in his face throughout the years. It’s so depressing thinking of bearing a child, though I’ve been wanting one but only after I feel like “weve done it all and now we’re a bit bored”.
I’m just sad thinking of seeing my boyfriend buried in frowns and white hair and me too. And reminiscing and regretting having a kid so soon and not have enjoyed our golden years and honeymoon a bit more. And in the other hand, I’m scared of aborting too , because I do feel like I’m killing a life inside me. I’m so torn.
**Tl;dr I’m extremely scared of having a kid and regretting in the future about this kid.**