I stopped checking my counter so I didn’t know yesterday. I can’t even believe I made it this far. But replacing my 6am smoke session with walking was a great recommendation from this subreddit and I’m so gratful. it’s my 3rd week waking up and going straight to the park. I really enjoy it and look forward to it now 😊
It could just be me fr … Plz don’t judge me ….. I tried Marijuana Anonymous meetings & it triggered me. It’s like a free for all dumping ground for triggers. You never know what to expect. I mean you have people bringing up their good ole smoking days, then the next could be someone crying because they can’t smoke cause it’s their first day. Then it can be someone talking about why they keep relapsing. Like I know I have BPD but come on it’s like a free for all therapy session with no structure. 😆 anyways won’t be attending again. Definitely not my kinda thing at all.
I visited the African American museum today just for the Atlantic slave trade exhibit and it made me dislike white people all over again and this time idk how to get over it. A lady outside tried to pray for me a white lady I told her no I said your ancestors used the bible against my people why would I allow you to pray over me. I hate that I feel this way again. I knew I should not have went.
16th day sober and today was payday, and I knew I would get anxious per usual, but not per usual I was able to talk myself down twice and eventually the craving went away. 🤏🏾 almost had me devil
My number one reason for quitting was weight gain from binge eating. I was so embarrassed how many times Uber Eats came to my house in a single day over 5 years 😭
I turn people down all the time because I want to be alone. I don't want marriage I have a 13-year-old already so no I don't want another child. I literally want to be alone. I can afford myself I don't need help. I used to always think something was wrong with me but its not I just enjoy my own company. If I go out I wear earphones always, I have more than one pair.
Do you think I ever come around to relationships again because the older I get the less tolerate I am for people bs
I cannot believe I made it two weeks. I did in December too but this time I haven't had that strong pull and cravings for it that always draw me back in then.
Things I did different.
I started walking the park at 6am since I always thought of weed first thing in the morning and that's when my worse cravings were. That's when I would get up and go find weed. So now when I wake up the park is the first thing I think about now after only 2 weeks weed no longer cross my mind. I do my hygiene and leave out asap. Its been working for 2 weeks. I stay in the park for 2 hours just walking listening to gospel and watching the animals.
I am on 50mg. I can barely eat. I started 8 days ago. I know Im barely getting 1k calories a day. Any advice. I need the medicine its been God sent.
I can’t lie I’m on SSDI & I used marijuana to cope with being bored a lot now I find myself just sitting around the house a lot. I do read, I live 1 min from a huge park I walk daily, I paint, I clean my house, I listen to music, talk with my daughter and nothing seem to replace the void of using because it took up so much of my free time & I’m not even enjoying those thing anymore cause I was doing them while high.
I’m not even sitting thinking about it much or having urges or impulsiveness to get up and buy it. I’m just literally bored out of my mind OMFG 😭
I read that this med can cause you to do weird things like binge eat which I was not aware of. I knew something was wrong over the last year since I upped my abilify from 5mg to 10mg. I was eating so much that I gained almost 60lbs. My doctor has since taken me off I am so confused as to why this happened
My birthday was 5 days ago and I was sober for 6 days before that. I relapsed on my birthday thought I would enjoy my birthday more boy was I incorrect. Didn’t get me where I wanted to be but I kept trying until yesterday when I eventually flushed what was left over. I truly don’t know why it took so many days it was trash I don’t understand my mental at all. I do have a mood disorder so that could be why I kept trying.
Anyways I’m 16 hrs sober now & I feel I got it this time.
I am on SSDI but I want to try to work again. I was wondering if anyone know any jobs where you don’t have to be overwhelmed too much. I get overwhelmed very easily & then I start going into a panic attack over task. I have a cna license but I have an ankle that was fracture and it’s just not the same with walking and standing. also can’t stand long around 10/15 mins max
I have a question I was in a car wreck and broke my ankle had a bimollar fracture broke two separate bones anyway I haven’t been to the doctor for it in 2 years but was still approved with a 5-7 year cycle. Do I have to make appts they can’t improve my ankle only can manage with pain meds.