My Molly was scared
My cat Molly of nearly 20 years was scheduled to be put to sleep today after she had been struggling to breathe for quite a while from some unknown issue that none of the vet's medications seemed to fix. She hated car rides so she puked and pooped and yowled on the way there. When we got to the vet she was scared the entire time, hiding in the corner where I sat with her right up until the moment she passed out. My heart is breaking over and over thinking about it, it hurts so much. I feel like I failed her. I got to pet her while she was dying but I feel like I made a mistake. I spent all of yesterday and today with her because her favorite thing was just to be next to me and get pets, and the last hour before we left we spent in the sunshine lounging. I'll never get her back and all she probably wanted was to keep staying with me.
It hurts so much. I don't know how to process this pain. My baby is gone forever and my house is so empty without her I don't even want to sleep here