Argh eczema sucketh le bahwlz
Sorry, just needed to do an emotional dump to at least help clear my pent up frustration over the never ending battle... there is this really nice woman who means well that I bump into at least once a day, but after I had a conversation opening up about my eczema and how miserable it makes me, she always now comments on the status of my skin. She doesn't do it to be a bully. She is actually really polite... I could just tell her that I know she doesn't mean to be bothersome in a more tactful way... like she will come up to me and go, "google bleach baths.... and oatmeal baths..." oh... I have tried those, thank you... or if we are sitting in a group and I try to switch the situation, she will approach to get up close by me and insist I google something like coconut oil... I will just pull her aside and be honest with her, because I know she means well and isn't trying to step on my toes and just doesn't want to see me in so much pain.
I guess I am being a little crabby anyways because of having been stuck in a miserable cycle of flareups that range from moderate to super severe and once again, I am heading towards the latter... as us eczema sufferers know, having eczema can also be kind of expensive in the way of managing it. Even if your Healthcare covers your medicine, all the things like proper laundry detergent, the right soap, the right lotions... not just for vain cosmetic reason, but so skin can heal correctly, or even bandages because a lot of it is wound management too... when I was employed and was able to get these things for myself, managing life was a lot easier ...
And also, the pain that comes with it... it's like always dealing with a bad sunburn that is super uncomfortable. If a paper cut hurts, like that but all over. It used to never, ever be on my hands& face and it has now advanced to being there... so it's where I can't just wear clothes and hide it now...
Can't wear makeup to hide it because the makeup will just oddly fill in the creases and make it more apparent than anything..
Then the stress of it also being apart of the cycle.
I have had this since early childhood. Sorry.
Just needed to vent.
I have been wanting to jumpstart my life again, but trying to get out there without being treated badly for my skin has been something of a difficulty to navigate.
That and the community washer & drier has not been fixed yet & won't for a little while more.. ran out of anything clean I had, so I am just grossly sitting in clothes I have been bleeding and flaking and weeping badly into... I don't have the means to remedy this, or I would not be gross, and it probably is a huge factor into why I keep scrtschtscryschtsxthzchhtttschrt... someone did offer me new clothes, but they were replete with a strong ass fragrance that would have made me more itchy...