u/alleeeram

30 y/o F, using BDO 3 years on and off caught in cycle of detox out patient then relapse then back to detox.
I’ve had enough. Detox said we won’t let you do this again you need to go to the hospital next time. Long story short I’ve gotten hold of 100x 10mg baclofen and 50 x 5mg diazepam. I will have someone to monitor 24/7 each weekend then after 6 weekdays (my ex partner works). I also use meth (8 year battle) but have hit my lowest low and want out. I’ve got nothing left. My care team says it’s too risky doing outside of a hospital setting but I think because I’ll have spoken there 24/7 Saturday and Sunday I’ll be okay? I should be right.

Currently using 3.6 ml every 2-2.5 hours, blacking out, 24/7 use for solid 4 months (hell on earth) I sleep 2 hours at a time but alas I wake up to anxiety and withdrawal symptoms and dose myself 2-3 ml to go back to sleep. So nothing solid over 3 hours ever without dosing. Usually go days without solid blocks of 2 hour sleep dose sleep dose cycle.

Advice?
Schedule?

I’ve just done a consult with 13sick (located in Australia). I explained to them that in the past, I gone through alcohol withdrawals at home and I was given a script of baclofen last time to subside the withdrawals until I could get into a doctor/hospital setting. The lady was very kind and give me a script of 10 mg baclofen I’m just wondering how best to take them; should I follow what Ive done during outpatient detox before a take one 10mg 3 times a day with 2x5mg Valium as needed?

I need to stop using and am determined to do so, failing is not an option. Please by guidance would be appreciated.