Physically dependent on GBL — dosing has become chaotic, need advice
Physically dependent on GBL — dosing has become chaotic, need advice
I’m physically dependent on GBL and my dosing has become chaotic after missed/late doses, severe sleep deprivation and a meth binge.
I know my current dose is relatively low (1 mL every 3 hours), but I have kindled from previous cycles of GBL use/withdrawal and have had serious withdrawal in the past, so I’m not comfortable assuming that my current dose means withdrawal will necessarily be mild.
My intended doses were 7:15pm and 10:00pm, but I ended up repeatedly topping up.
Friday
7:15pm — 1 mL (normal dose)
7:20 — 0.2
7:35 — 0.2
7:53 — 0.2
8:08 — 0.2
8:39 — 0.3
10:00pm — 1 mL (normal dose)
10:30 — 0.2
10:40 — 0.2
Saturday
1:00am — MISSED DOSE
3:30am — 1 mL (new planned start time; took a full dose to see if it would stabilise me)
4:14 — 0.5
4:30 — 0.3
4:50 — 0.2
6:30am — was supposed to be 0.5 mL, but I fell asleep
7:41am — woke up and took 1.5 mL
9:28am — 0.5 mL
9:40am — 0.5 mL
The 3:30am dose didn’t really relieve the withdrawal, so I kept taking small amounts trying to get back to baseline. I then missed the planned 6:30 dose because I fell asleep.
The later doses have partly relieved the symptoms. I feel G’d up, like Iv had slightly to much bit Sri a rebound word spaced out headache like my head is upside down but have very little energy, and the relief from the withdrawal doesn’t seem to last very long.
I’m looking for specific advice from people experienced with GBL dependence about how to stabilise after this kind of chaotic dosing —
particularly how to get back to my normal 1 mL every 3 hours without continuing this cycle of top-ups, and how people handle missed doses and sleep.
Please no judgement. I’m genuinely trying to get the dosing under control.