u/alune_e

TW: Discussing binge eating disorder

I've recently been doing better after having a year long flare that caused me to drop 20 lbs and gave me 0 appetite with constant vomiting. Within the past month I've slowly seemed to have come out of it, but this past week I'm noticing a habit that always appears right when I'm starting to feel hungry again. I can't stop binge eating, it's controllable when I've had access to meals throughout the day, but four days ago I went all day without food and I felt I was going to faint, I was so famished that when I got a large pizza I ate it all in one night. Then the next day I binged ate pasta, then pizza again today.

Does anyone else struggle hard with eating nonstop? It's like my body is trying to make up for the months I've been sick, it's not a normal hunger it's like I feel like I'm going to pass out and then when I start eating a small piece of something it spirals into me being unable to stop eating. I want to get ahead of this but I'm so hungry it feels like I'm also restricting myself from eating when I stop myself. It's really bad and makes me feel horrible, it's like why does this awful condition also make me struggle with an eating disorder whenever things are getting better?