My grandma kissed my baby
My grandma kissed my 20 day old baby. She knew I didn't want anyone kissing her. She kissed her on the head and I didn't say anything. Which in hindsight was a mistake. Then she kissed her on the hands. I noticed a whitehead on her chin near her lip. Not on it though. I told her no kissing the baby. My aunt chimed in saying they would when I wasn't looking. I took baby to the bedroom for a diaper change and wiped her hands with a baby wipe.
My childless aunt drove me home and she was lecturing me on how I can't protect my baby from everything. That she will be exposed to things once she's in school and if she goes to daycare. She told me to just give baby a bath when I get home. I sat in the car saying very little trying not to break down.
When I got out of the car she said again to give her a bath. I shook my head no, because bathing her will not ease my mind. She said "fine don't feel better."
As soon as I got inside I broke down. My aunt is insisting that it's just a pimple.
I called my grandma asking what the bump was. She claimed there was no bump. I said yes there was and you kissed my baby. She said I WILL NEVER KISS YOUR BABY AGAIN. Then hung up on me.
I am so terrified for my baby. I am blaming myself and I will not be taking her out again unless absolutely necessary. I was just going stir crazy and wanted to feel human. I have been struggling with my husband going back to work after a week. High blood pressure issues and my baby cluster feeding on top of that.
I feel like a terrible mother and that I have failed my baby.