u/amyh150299

I'm on the MSc Adult Nursing course at a UK university, which is two years instead of three. I'm currently on my management placement and it's not going well. I've had an assignment to do alongside this placement, this has been causing me a lot of stress and has been taking a lot of my focus. My mental health is also very bad as I've been having issues with relationships in my personal life.

My assessor has gotten annoyed with me a few times when I've been unsure of how to do things. I can understand their reasons for getting frustrated, but I do feel uncomfortable around them, they've made comments to me before telling me I've got no common sense and I need to practice my people skills as I accidentally put on a leg bag too tight. My assessor was complaining about me to a patient in front of me earlier, which resulted in my anxiety spiralling as a big fear of mine is judgement, and I then screwed up. They told me afterwards I'm more like a first year student. I explained to them that the assignment has been causing me a lot of stress and taking a lot of my focus, ​I have never done an assignment whilst being on placement before, and they asked me what I would do if I failed my management placement. I feel absolutely dreadful as I believe I'm going to fail my management placement and I don't know what I'll do if I do fail it.

There's a couple, I'll call them D and H, who my partner and I have been swinging with since November last year. As time has passed, it has become obvious that D has developed feelings towards me. D confirmed this not long ago and his wife told my partner and I that they were interested in having a relationship with the both of us. At present, we are still friends as we're working things out.

We all went to an event at a club a couple of months ago and met friends there as well as some new people. I had played with D at the hotel before the event and at the event, I played with three men. After the event, he sent me a message telling me he felt like I was more interested in new people than him and he was upset that I didn't do anything with him at the club and that his wife didn't get any action. I pointed out he had played with another woman that night.

The weekend just gone, I went to a club with D and H where we met another couple, whom I'd already had a social with and it was D and H's first time meeting them. The moment the other couple arrived, D was constantly flirting with and touching the female half of the couple, telling her how amazing she was and how hot she looked in her outfits. D never spoke to me or even acknowledged me. During the playroom session, D spent all of his time with the female half of the couple and his wife spent all of her time with the male half. I played with a female friend they brought along, but I felt disheartened that I never got the opportunity to play with either of the couple. At one point, D called the lady I was playing with over to him whilst he was still playing with the other lady and I was then on my own. I was hoping he was going to send the other lady my way, but he didn't.

He noticed after we'd finished playing that I looked upset and asked me what was wrong. I didn't want to say anything with the others being around and I was trying to figure out if my annoyance was justified. I felt like it was hypocritical for him to have gotten upset with me after the event a couple of months prior, saying I had been more interested in new people than him and for not having played with him at the club, when I believe he had done the same to me at the weekend. I'm not sure whether or not I should confront him about it.

I am not able to squirt, I have tried numerous times, but it doesn't seem to happen.

It seems like in every group situation I'm in, it's always a case of all the women are squirters apart from me. I feel like I'm always the odd one out and because I know how much men enjoy it, I'm worried that men won't find me interesting or fun to play with, and my regular play partners will get bored of me. I feel embarrassed when the only one who can't do it and don't tell people that I can't. I'm in a group chat for a party that will be taking place next weekend and one of the guys has asked who can squirt, and already, the other women who will be going have said they can and I'm already worried. I'm not sure how to overcome this, but I need to as it's affecting my enjoyment of group scenarios, because I constantly feel under pressure to do it to please others and I get angry with myself when I don't.

I bought a house on an estate that is mostly social housing. I was aware I would be surrounded by social housing, but I wanted to give it the benefit of the doubt. In the two years I've been here, my neighbour has left a total of three sofas on our shared front garden, which were there for nearly two months before they got removed. Other furniture has been dumped outside of their house. I'm the only person who cuts the grass on the shared garden. Neighbours shout across the street at each other, shoot across the street on dirt bikes and quads, and one sometimes invites their friend over who is always carrying a giant speaker and blasts music in their back garden. I've had people's kids playing and screaming at each other on my front garden, and my car has been hit by footballs numerous times. A lot of people round here don't work and don't seem to have a lot of consideration for others. I'm looking at selling next year and can say for definite I will not be buying near social housing again.