My LO left me on "read"
It started as a crush on a fellow musician in my (34F) local scene. He's far more accomplished, so of course I had them on a pedestal
Then I started seeing them around. (Our social circles overlap enough to give me a false sense of hope.)
Then I found out they were single (a friend told me)
Then I saw them on Hinge and sent a like.
The anticipation and possibility that they could like me back got me high.
Then....nothing. He hasn't matched with me.
A few weeks later, we ran into each other at a bar.
We made eye contact, smiled, and nodded, but nothing else.
That 2 seconds worth of an interaction sent my mind spinning.
A few more weeks passed, and I regretted not saying hi.
So, I slipped into their DM's on Instagram saying that I had kept seeing them around, but I never actually get to say hi.
They said they had recognized me and that the next time we see each other, we'll actually introduce ourselves.
A few days later, I said, if they ever wanted to run into me on purpose, we should get coffee or a drink sometime. I dropped my number.
They left me on read.
Two weeks ago
I'm still spiraling.
I keep telling myself that he doesn't owe me anything. He doesn't. But I can't help but be so wildly offended that he didn't verbally reject me. I have to sit with the silence and I hate it.
This is so extremely embarrassing and my therapist isn't being helpful at all I don't know what to do. I feel like my behavior is fucking creepy, when in reality, I'm just shooting my shot
I'm not an unattractive woman, I get hit on pretty often. But my own attraction to other people is so insanely specific that when I find the slightest possibility of reciprocation, my mind goes absolutely haywire. I just need some help.