LOR attending not responding
I am in a very difficult position right now. Just like everyone I went to the US for my electives and observerships. All my attendings were very nice to me and told me to stay in contact when I was leaving. I did pretty well. There was never a problem and they all appreciated me. So I asked for an LOR towards the end of my rotation. A bit of a background, I am from a middle class background, first person in family to even sit on a plane. My father had to sell his car and engagement ring to send me to the US. It killed me but I had hoped that it was gonna be worth it in the end. Now that it is time to apply one of my attending has ghosted 2 emails of mine. I am really anxious and can’t sleep or eat. I can’t bear the look on my father’s face he’s so hopeful. If not for me I wanted to match for him. He has given up his whole life for me. I have done well on my tests and have good scores but i was really looking forward to this LOR. My problem is that okay fine you don’t want to write me an LOR it’s okay but why did you have to lie to my face, I could’ve looked for something else while i was there in the US. Now that i am back home i cannot afford to go back and what’s killing me even more is that everything my dad sold for me and spent his hard earned money on me so that i could achieve my dream was for nothing.
This attending gave me his phone number. Was so so kind to me during my rotation i could have never believed he would ghost me at such a critical time. So my question now is that i have already emailed her twice should i keep emailing her every week and send a message on her number. it’s really important to me. I wanna give it my all