Limerence for a close friend - I am in agony
My friend has been my LO for almost 3 years. At first, it felt so good. They would talk to me all the time and send me things that made them think of me or that I’d like. I got so sucked into the fantasy that it felt like they were “mine”. Then maybe a year later it started to sink in that they weren’t mine and the pain was unbelievable. I would check my phone constantly, hoping they had messaged, and had extreme feelings of jealousy if they spoke about another friend or colleague, I would bombard them with texts until a subject stuck. This has been the case for almost 2 years now. I feel so ashamed and weak. I have tried the distractions and therapy and I always end up thinking about them. It’s too much. I don’t want to let them go but this is not sustainable.