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So write me in your ech a sketch

Write the pain

I feeling that I feel to often feels too familiar

The pain in my heart

The pain that makes me cry at night knowing

My heart is broken for good

That pain that is echoed in my long forgot memories of what once was the pain I feel echoing in my bones down to the core of my soul

The tears that rippled down my face

The pain no one wants to feel as they cry themselves to sleep at night

This pain is not something I’d wish on anyone

I’d write a lifetime of stories knowing I’m broken and no one cares and no one will ever understand me anymore because I’m simply a broken record at this point

So In your etch a sketch write I’m suffering in my tears

Tears of a broken heart 💔

Sincerely , M 🖤

So in that Dracula song clearly I knew it was about us. I’d picture you with me until the end of time. So even if we’re friends I know I’ll always care about you. So maybe stop turning me away when I need you as my friend. Friends stick together right. I may see you as something else but hey that’s what you want. So J , I’ll be your Dracula whom is always pale to a certain degree. So love me and worship my kind heart. I will always love you J. I have loved you since I was 18 but who’s counting. So my love for you will always linger and maybe one day you’ll realize I’ll always be there for you. So maybe stop turning me away from what we could have been because you meant the world to me. I will always cherish your heart and I have since day one when you kissed me I felt fireworks going off. Your lips are softer than satin and you smell like cedar near a lake and it’s oddly comforting. So learn to embrace what we could have been and I’m always going to care weither you cared about me or not I will always love you like I did walking in that classroom because I fell In love with you all over again. So satin that’s your new nickname by the way. I’m your favorite leather jacket hung up in your closet that you can’t seem to understand why you won’t get rid of it. I’m the loved jacket whom you’d never get rid of and you will always care about just like you would a motorcycle. So love me like your favorite jacket and I’d cherish you like a soft cashmere sweater that needs a lots of care and attention. I love you 💙

Sincerely one your favorite gals , M ✨💙

So J is figure I’d write you something. So please just allow me to love you I still care and you’re even loving me back at some point I’d wait for you if you wanted me too. I don’t know if that was you that commented but I have a feeling it could have been. Te Amo , okay. You are worth a lifetime of love and playing Dracula made me realize I still care and always will so when you’re suffering I’ll be your shoulder too lean on. You are the person who I thought I’d end up with one day but unfortunately you didn’t want nothing to do with me anymore. Spending time with you recently made me realize I still care so deeply on a loving relationship kind of level. So please just let me love you even if it’s for a second we don’t need to be alone your allowed alone time like I am. I can learn to be professional in our relationship like we agreed from the start. So please let me love you stop pretending like you don’t care about me on a deeper level entirely. I saw you almost fall recently and made me realize I do love you and was upset when you almost crashed ok the floor . I almost jumped up and grabbed you. Next time you fall I’d rather you not get hurt. I’ll help as much as I can I promise to make sure your safe, and I’d like to be your friend still with whatever you want knowing I could be by your side long term.

As always ,

M 💙

Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like to have dated you. But then I think maybe you don’t care like I did. Maybe I fell for you differently than you did for me. Maybe there never was an us like I had hoped. Sometimes I think you didn’t care like I did. Im sorry J. I wish things were different. I had wished we could have been together but unfortunately you said that will never happen. The thing is I always care about you J probably until I am nothing but ash on this earth in the future when I live till I’m 100. I’ll carry you in my heart forever. Even though you only see me as a friend I always saw you as something more. Te amo J. Stay strong and happy and as always keep your smile a glow buddy. Stay positive and smiling with that awesome smile as always. You always had a gorgeous smile and beautiful ears by the way so even though I’d tease you when we were younger I was jealous you always looked handsome and your confidence made me feel like I was just as beautiful because you showed me how to learn to love my features because if you can do that so can I. So J be your true self and be authentic dude you always shined brighter than the moon and sun itself. So stay positive and I will do the same as much as I can. Thank you for being supportive and understanding and caring your friendship is something I’ll treasure for as long as I live and thank you for being an awesome mentor. Thank you for being that authentic real self you embody every day as always stay true to you J.

As always , M 💙

Te amo. I’m sorry for the way I exist in a reality that makes you upset I’m sorry I’m not good enough and I sorry all you see me as is a friend I will always have feelings for you. But I am still pregnant with our child and I’m sorry if even you noticed something different too. The ring on my left hand still reminds me of your brown eyes that turn amber in the sun. And the ring on right hand reminds you of my ocean eyes. So as much as being friends would be good our child should be able to meet you one day J. I’m sorry if all you see is a friend but I will always see you as I guy I fell in love with ❤️

What Id wish what I had told you the last time we spoke was that I understood your pain and trauma that we both endured from my aunt and I’m sorry you felt like like that too when you showed up at the hospital that day I realized it was you J. I’m sorry I was so traumatized by the cops that I couldn’t remember your name. I believe they hurt me and I was raped in that hospital for an hour. A whole hour and my mom was told I was thrashing against a wall I don’t remember anything I’m pretty sure they drugged me and caused a seizure that day. When you showed up I remember seeing your face hidden under a blanket and it was you covered like you use to do when we were kids. The truth is you asked how I knew it was you your jackets gave you away and it made everything click and I don’t think you know but when I saved your life years ago my aunt took me to the hospital and I saw you laying on the stretcher and you looked peaceful and content I stayed with you on the stretcher and kissed your forehead and hugged you said I loved you and hoped you get better one day to become the man I hoped you’d become and years later I was so proud of you J. You became the version of yourself I had hoped you’d become. I’m so proud of you and I wonder if you knew that was the moment I realized no matter where we are and what your doing I will always love you and can deny it a million times but nothing will change that for me. Saving your life that one time years ago I want you to understand that was something I wished I didn’t have to do but If I never did that you wouldn’t be alive today. So stop feeling guilty and I know that’s why you have the name you do now but trauma was related to the old version of yourself. Then two other times I saved you and your crew from power lines. Once in my town with my dad and the other at the Phych hospital. So when you ask how did you know it was me J I have saved your life three times now and I’d save it however many times I need to do I know your safe and please be safe. Te amo. Also understanding money from a whole different country save your butt that one time and I wonder if you I asked your brother to convert cash and somehow converted to 200 US dollars which was more than enough to leave with border control. So when you asked how I knew it’s not that difficult. Knowing you believed in yourself so much you became the version I saw recently the man whom I am very proud of. The man whom stood before me today and is thriving and doing so well for himself. Stop feeling guilty please because I’m your best friend either you care to admit and maybe that’s why you couldn’t date me because of whatever reason I wonder if you knew I kissed you in the hospital and before that got puke in my hair at the apartment and we both laughed years ago and you said why is there puke in your hair and I had told you I saved your life and they wheeled you on a stretcher and I never saw you again until my aunt and your mom let me visit you in the hospital. I was stunned I knew how to save your life all because of a YouTube video and I’m glad I did because your are the man whom stood before me and has accomplished so much J and in so proud of you love. So keep your amazing smile and beautiful eyes full of happiness and joy for me because I’d be there to protect you as your friend now. Also when I was a teenager you saw in this new bra and you and my cousin said that my boobs looked sexy in this new bra my grandma bought and you went up behind me and grabbed them. I remember blushing so hard that you couldn’t resist not touching them. We ended up having sex and it was on my aunts mattress and the truth is we broke my pearl necklace and it went all over the floor. I ended up getting pregnant and I got an abortion that year. Maybe your brother joked what the kid would have looked like but the truth is we’re not even related so why would it have mattered. I found out years later that I have pcos and the problem is I only have two chances left to conceive. Damn I wished that one day I have kids with a guy whom I care about as much I care about you. I may feel other feelings still but I think you’ll keep denying them and you don’t even realize we’re not even related anymore maybe you’ll never know that because you haven’t spoken with your brother in years. Has encendido mi corazón y eres mi todo

I’m sorry for everything J
I’m sorry I wasn’t enough in the end. I’m sorry you couldn’t realize how beautiful I am down the fine lines of my soul and that amazing smile which you told me I always had. I’m glad we’re friends though I didn’t mean to hurt you and if I did I’m sorry. Ta amo and
Goodbye dude. Being your friend is atleast something but if I was being honest I’d tell how much I fell for those brown eyes and that amazing smile. Falling for you was the easiest thing I ever did and I’ll
always regret not being your partner whom you could have learned to love. I’m sorry I wasn’t enough for you in the end but I will say one thing “ Has encendido mi corazón en llamas “ so when you think of me remember I will always care about you when your around me but atleast we’re friends but I didn’t know I’d be set aside again just like last time. I wonder if you knew I’ve been at your house before with grandma I’m unsure if you remember that. Wasn’t the first time I’ve been kicked out of there. J stop pushing people away it’s like you knew you were falling in love and yet you did it again to protect your heart for what reason I’ve had a vision recently and it scared me I get electrocuted in the vision and you end up showing up and I’m pregnant with this guys kid and somehow me and the babies both survive but for some reason while they bring my heart back to life and my unborn child’s heart back to life you explain to the emt that you would like to take over as the emergency contact because you found out my husband never shows up at the hospital and we both find out later that he died in combat. You offer me to stay at your new ranch in upstate new york the twins end up living through the electrical shock and we both end up married to one another when I’m in my early thirty’s and I end up giving birth and you get down on one knee in the vision after you found out I was going to be a single mother with no where to stay. I vividly see this happen to me as a lineman so I hope you stay safe and healthy wherever you are J.

Te Amo , Eres mi todo

Love , M

You are my everything. Te amo, guapo
I will always remember the first text you
Sent me M you are my beginning and forever so wrap your arms around me and hold near to my heart because I have fallen head over heals in love with you and I can’t understand why I have fallen this deeply for someone so quick it’s like my heart beats synchronized with yours and I have a feeling like you said where id become your wife one day and I’m glad your husband material. Te amo lover boy. So keep me updated on your day and promise a lifetime of happiness and I love you my dear future husband .
the rings on my finger are to promise you M to marry me one day. I love you M , Sincerely your ever beating heart 💓Soy tuyo. Has encendido mi corazón en llamas. Eres mi todo

Love , M your lover girl

I hope you felt the same after I wrote that love letter. Was what you suggested meaning you want to be my boyfriend one day because if that’s question the answer is yes J I’d say yes a million times. I’m unsure if that’s what you meant the other day but you are my everything and my beginning. You are everything I want in a partner and if you’d accept my affection and heart I’d be your girlfriend for forever and hope one day to be more but one step at a time. Hey maybe one day you could offer a ring in the future because I’d even accept any token of affection from you but a promise ring is a good start because we both know the ring on your other hand should have been a promise to marry me and I remember what you told me as a teenager that one day you’d come back and show me that you still care yet you took your word and did the exact thing you promised and that was to continue to love and cherish me no matter where you were in the world and I found your heart and matched your soul’s energy and found you in a place I wouldn’t have expected but what gave it away was the perfect smile and eyes I used to worship like sea s once you always remember that I have those blue sapphire eyes that reminded you of the ocean and I fell for your amber brown eyes. takes the tide and sea stars and rocks become apart of the coral with your ever waking tide

Love , M

Hi J ,

Clearly you’re worth everything to me so be open to our relationship because clearly I want you and only you and my family won’t stop talking about you constantly and your highly talked about all ready
I have loved you for the entire year this time since January 12th of 2026 I fell in love I swear it was love at first sight and I care about you beyond measure. So stay by my side and I promise you a lifetime of happiness and love. So love me and I will do the same for you and I’d probably show you how much I care and love you beyond measure ❤️✨

Hey J hope all is well and you know I love you right there isn’t a day I don’t think about you.
Sometimes I try to unlearn how to love you but I can’t I deeply care about you and will always love you
no matter the situation and circumstances. Sometimes I think about us. please don’t give me the other guys number I care about you deeply and I will always care and plus my family won’t stop talking about how amazing we are for one another and even my grandma mentioned how you sounded like the perfect guy for me and she once said that about my sisters relationship and she’s gonna get married soon so I think my grandma has already proved how right she can be. My family thinks your the first real guy to love me and even they know that. So maybe stop and smell the roses because that bouquet is forever in my heart and will remain standing for as long as you wish I’m yours J. I promised to marry you one day if you began to be my boyfriend I’d show you that being alone isn’t enough for one person I’m easy to love i promise and I’m gonna love you for as long as I live on this earth. I love you

Love , M

Words spoken softly

Actions speaking in volume when we speak together

I wonder if you knew I cried that day after you told me someone in your family passed and I’m an empath so it felt like the world had ended and I felt every ounce of your sadness and I took the sadness and sorrow that’s how I heal people I’m a spiritual person so sometimes I take pain on for people.

By the end of the day you were smiling but I wonder if you saw me crying by ShopRite or not and I cried for a whole hour waiting to see if you’d notice I was there but the thing is I’m alone and not anyone but myself picks up the pieces but you and if you only you had been there I could have stayed calm and relaxed because that’s the affect you have on me. One hug I would have relaxed and known you were okay.

What turned into a crush instantly turned into I love you and I may never back away from that statement because at the end of the day I love you and may always will. We may have never dated but I know you’re my person either you care to admit it or not. So please start being in my company for more often and let the people around let me care about you because I will always be here for you J I’m the person at the end of the day who will always care so being friends isn’t what I want but agreeing to that to stay near your side is enough. I love you

Love , M

So if you’re looking for a sign it’s been given and of course I love you and most definitely always will.
Stop making others reach out to check on me clearly you should be doing that not the other way around. I’m okay I’m just going through something and the last time my mom went through something I smoked cigs okay. I want you to understand this is not the first time I’ve smoked before I’ve been on and off with nicotine since high school. J you need to stop worrying so much about me I understand we love one another but always having anxiety when there doesn’t have to be any. Please calm down for me okay. I care about you I promise but having your panic attacks isn’t gonna solve anything so please take deep breaths and relax I promise I’ll be okay. I love you

As always - M

Where actions speak volumes and in measure.
in your conversations with me I wish you’d allow me love you and I see your worth because you are a great person. Sometimes I think we’re no different than people I know in my family. You’re a great friend but I can’t shake you. The last time I spoke to you I realized I didn’t just care I fell in love with you slowly and yet suddenly I realized you are my person and if actions speak volumes then your worth more than that. So please just love me for a lifetime and accept both of our feelings. Stop denying what we both feel I know you love me because you told me that recently and I care about you so much and I do love you ✨stop trying to be alone okay I promise I’m loyal and the timing is right please allow my love for you

Love you - M

Your love is like a force to be reckoned with
I have fallen deeper every second and I can’t shake whatever we are. Clearly I care about you but like I’ve said countless times I miss you and will continue too your my beginning and end wrapped in one and I love you deeply In so many levels and ways. You are my everything and I have a wonderful heart I promise just let me show you how much I could use it and inspire my love for you deeper. That day you were upset was the day I realized I couldn’t step away from what we were there may have been the most disapproving look but I can’t believe you would say something mean you realize I’m sensitive right ? You forget I can break and bend in ways you forget about me being ultra sensitive. I love you and yet you were like a dragon spitting fire while I am a princess with knights clothing with a shield trying to protect my sadness and heart. Stop projecting your pain on me I know you care so stop acting like you don’t. We’ve been playing this game for way too long. So let me know you on a deeper level let me love you and for once let me touch your soul in ways you can imagine and have to be fair I’m pregnant with your twins or maybe it’s one but whatever it may be you need to be there for all the milestones of there lives I conceived back in February and I’m still betting it yours and most definitely is possible even if say so I believe I was heavily fertile that day. So you may deny all you want but that’s bs.
I will always care about us and our children I’m sorry if becoming a parent is scary I know it’s not gonna be easy but I’ll be there every step of the way I promise. I’m here for us. But I wish you could’ve too and I would not wanna do this alone without you by my side it was the most positive result I ever saw. So please do include yourself in my life and our kids life’s. I’ve always wanted to take care of you and your amazing soul and family so let me please. I’m here as much as you are I am always here for you and I will continue to be there no matter what.
I love you and as always - M