I am an ELA teacher doing their first demo lesson ever for my first potential teaching job ever. It’s 20 minutes at a transfer school in Brooklyn for 16-20 year olds. I just need good vibes and some tips and advice for being calm and dealing with perfectionism. I already had one interview at this school so I am pretty sure this is the last and final step for them.
Im a first year teacher looking at schools in NYC. I wanna teach ELA to middle or high schoolers. My first interview went really well but the second one felt very shaky and the administration was super cold. I feel embarrassed and like a failure. I’m honestly worried I won’t secure a job by the end of this summer if I keep getting stuck only securing these final interviews but then bombing or being rejected two weeks later.
I am finishing my student teaching and I have an interview as an ELA teacher at a high school in the Bronx. However whenever I go on teacher forums or subreddits everyone is saying how bad this profession has become.
I also suffer from severe ocd and anxiety and depression. I am medicated but I still have panic attacks every morning and I feel like nothing I do is good enough. Everyone says my lessons are fine but what if they’re not once I am on my own? What if I have never time to have my own life again? Right now my schedule is 5 am-8:30 pm because I work after student teaching and I have to leave my house by six to get to my student teaching job on time. I’m really just worried I’m going to be stuck drowning in work for the rest of my life. Sometimes it takes me hours to just plan one lesson. :( I just need help.