Hi,
2nd post in 24 hrs… Any of my fellow nurses worked for Sierra Health & Wellness in CA? They’re currently hiring for a Nurse Manager position in my area. It’s a Sunday-Thursday 9-5pm… what gives me pause is I’ve seen this exact position posted 3 times in the year and a half I’ve been a nurse. The facility I’d be at is Voluntary admission only, so there’s that.
Hello to all my fellow psych nurses,
Does anyone else who works NOCs feel like they’re micro dosing psychosis by working night shift? 🤣 I work M-Th 2300-0730. While I typically manage these hours well, and do sleep on my work days I find my sleep to be subpar. My sleep is usually from 0900-1630. Even with blackout curtains, sleep aides, etc. My first day off (Friday) I usually sleep til 1200-1300, and wake up without an alarm and when I try to fall back asleep I can’t because I’m amped to be off work… then I usually gravitate towards bed around 0030 and sleep until 0900 the next day. I’ve tried everything to keep a consistent schedule on my days off, it just doesn’t happen I think it’s as much psychological as it is physiological. My spouse is a day walker, as is everyone else in my inner circle. I really love my job, and I’m good at it. I’m in NorCal, positions for nurses are hard to come by here and highly competitive as is most of the case in CA. I’ve only worked in psych as a nurse, and have been a nurse for 1.5 years. Seeking some commiseration, reassurance, and guidance I guess.
I have yet to be contacted by debt collection for a 6,000 credit card that was charged off at the beginning of this year. I have other credit card debt that was taken over by a debt consolidation program. I own 1 home and a POS car. My consolidation program said they could add the 6000 for an extra $300 a month, already pay $300 which would bring my total to $600 a month. REALLY not trying to pay that much monthly. $300 is about my max. When/if a debt collector reaches out what are my options? I’ve heard you can talk them down. My own father had a 4,000 debt in 2005 and when collections called he offered them $500 to clear it. They did. Just trying to get a feel for what to expect and how to handle it.
My brain constantly bombards me with thoughts of death. Death of my partner, death of my fucking mother. Death. Death. Death. I’m 29, F, and level 1 autistic. This might be a fucking hyperfixation. LIIIIKKEEEE… it’s not just death, honestly. I think it’s just the idea that I have no control over my life and what I’m fucking subjected too. I understand hurt is apart of the human existence, but what do you mean my spouse could have cancer this very moment and we don’t fucking know it?? How is it fair that I could get dementia and not remember myself or the people I love?! Life is a tunnel leading to the loss of everyone you love, it feels.
I normally work Monday-Thursday 11pm-7:30am. Took PTO for Monday night this week as we spent the weekend out of town camping. It’s 11 am, and I am dreading the idea of work tonight. Started my monthly gift yesterday, and it’s horrendous. (TMI, sorry y’all) Super low energy. Just want to stay home again tonight. Haven’t used a single sick day this year, so it’s absolutely available to me but I just have so much guilt 😂 why am I like this? It’s honestly exacerbated by the fact that I took PTO and already had an extra day off. Anyone else have these moments? I’ll probably just force myself to go into work, because I freeze up at the thought of having to call my manager and notify him of absence due to illness.