u/anymoose

Feel like all I see is "I'm so lonely I want to slit my own throat" or "I friggin' hate everyone and want to slit their throats!"

I sincerely hope there are more people than me who are fine with where they are ....

The Aviators: Eddie Rickenbacker, Jimmy Doolittle, Charles Lindbergh, and the Epic Age of Flight

By Winston Groom

Recently finished:

Black Elk: The Life of an American Visionary

By Joe Jackson (not the punk rocker guy nor the old timey baseball guy) ...

I'm a library/kindle reader, so I catch up with a lot of non-fiction that tends to be years older as it becomes available.

I live the the Great Lakes region of the USA. Almost everyone here uses umbrellas in the rain. A few years ago I visited the Pacific Northwest and found most people I saw wore raincoats and did not use umbrellas.

I found it extremely liberating going back home and buying a raincoat! Suddenly, I had both of my hands free!

It's been very rainy and thunderstormy here the past few days.

Sublime!

I've got the will and trust set up.

I've set up relatives with legal and healthcare powers of attorney. I don't think either would be able to do anything during an emergency where timeliness would be a factor.

I had given keys to my house to relatives (so they could bring in my mail and look after the house when I travel for a couple or three weeks). But before my last trip, they admitted they lost my keys. I never felt comfortable giving them a new set after that.

Not to be morbid, but are EMTs going to have to break down your door to get in?

Mostly autopilot for me.

How do you deal when you are not where you want it to be? I can say with true honesty that I freak out for only a minute or two, but my "inner engineer" always comes back to ask, "Okay, how do I fix this problem?"

I guess the only reason is because my "inner engineer" kind of has a sense of where my true balance is. The only question to him/her is how to get there....

If I always lived in chaos (and that was "normal" for me), I think I would never be able to get out of it.

Maybe that is what is is like to have ADHD or some divergent issues like that which I've never experienced.

I don't know. I've never experienced it in full ....

I've been thinking about a friend of mine, lately, who might be like this ....