The closet was always glass, I just didn't realize it
I'm in the process of discovering that I'm (most likely) a lesbian. Here's a list of things that I didn't realize were very clear signs:
- having to actively force myself not to stare at the other girls in the locker rooms in middle school
- I thought that it was universally understood that women's bodies were more appealing than men's and that penises were ugly. I didn't realize that there were women who didn't feel that way until I was 15.
- skipping porn scenes that showed penises and eventually only watching solo female porn
*Sidenote: when I learned what bukkake is I gagged and almost threw up**
- literally kissing women lol. I kissed another girl in the playground firetruck in Pre-K and just kept doing that randomly through my whole life somehow thinking it didn't mean anything.
- most of my friends being lgbt growing up
- being nervous around attractive women
- eventually not being able to get wet (most of the time) within every heterosexual relationship I've ever been in unless thinking about women.