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Doing my first watch right now and just saw the seen where Robert Jr spoke to Mary about his addiction. Very hard to watch especially after losing my mom to addiction.

Despite what anyone can say about it being manufactured, no matter how many times they have that conversation it will always be raw. It broke my heart to hear the silence between them and hearing him say how high his tolerance had gotten.

There is a decent part of it where mary pleads with her son to get help, because if he died she doesn't know what would happen to her. She talks for a long time, about how much a gift he was, how she wasn't happy before him, everything.

And with the way things have ended, I can't bear to worry about her. Regardless of how the show portrays her, losing her son and never seeing him to choose to get sober must be horrifying.

I don't know if she's going to be in the next season, but I hope she has support regardless.

I am 21F, with a breast lump 4x5mm that moves and is super painful. It grew that large in 2 months. It does shrink. I also have very dense breasts, genetically.

I am basically certain that I do not have a malignant tumor, but I feel uncomfortable and need to get this off my chest.

I got my ultrasound today, which was given from a referral from my PCP. As I was getting the ultrasound, I was asking the nurse a lot of general questions because I have never spoken to a woman about breast health before at all. I do not know a single thing about tissue, routine checks, regular breast checks, nothing. I am learning little by little.

I asked her if it was concerning that I had dense breast tissue. My PCP mentioned it to me. I said that I knew it was because I was young, but I also know that all the women in my family have denser breast tissue. My boobs will likely be dense as I grow into adulthood like my mom sister. When I mentioned this she wanted to make a point to tell me that I should be planning on getting routine checks every year with a mammogram because it raises the risk. But she definetly meant that my family history of dense breast tissue is not something to overlook.

The doctor came in and he said that my ultrasound was completely normal. He said it was just swollen breast tissue, and that I will have it for the rest of my life and it will swell up hormonally. I asked him if I needed to follow up with anyone and he said that technically I don't need to see a doctor for it ever again. He said there is absolutely no need to follow up and if I wanted to do nothing about it then that was fine.

Of course, I don't know the first thing about ultrasounds and what they can exactly detect or what the different shapes and lines mean, but my ultrasound did NOT look "normal" at all. There was definitely a large black mass.

This is where I feel weird about questioning him. There were some characteristics in the ultrasound, which was that the mass looked like a dark-ish black fuzzy cotton ball that was denser in the middle and less dense as it spread out. From another angle, it is like large black bean but does have many sharp and irregular edges.

I want to say that I completely trust him that it's not cancer. The only reasons why I am worried is that those are characteristics that seem similar to the way breast cancer looks on ultrasound. My lump moves and hurts, but I didn't understand why there was no biopsy recommended considering breast cancer can hide next to or near these lumps. I am not seeking a cancer diagnosis and I do not want to seem like a hypochondriac. I know for sure that I do not know more than the doctor does and would never ever want to seem like that. I am going to these appointments alone and think that my dad would advocate for further imaging, which is why I am coming here. I also do not have any older women in my life who could tell me anything.