My mom is 60 now and babying my addict brother
For over 7 years my younger brother is battling opioid & fent addiction. He is 24, which is young but at the same time I feel like he hasnt been able to start his life, ur hasn’t tried . It’s hard to know. I don’t think I understand how it is to be addicted to something that completely removes you from your conscious and makes you a vessel for consumption, mindless rage and abuse . He always has a woman at my moms house. They always end up fighting , breaking things , having the cops called on them .
I’m in brackish water between being a pillar of support for my mom and focusing on my own growth finally at the end of my 20s . I feel stunted too.
It breaks my heart to see my brother draining my mom. She acts like she’s okay always, but I see my mom getting spots on her hands , and more wrinkles on her face and I know I don’t have forever with her .
And now I am choosing to be distant , to protect myself. And leaving my mom in the chaotic pit of horror that is my brothers addiction.
I just had to vent.
I already miss my mom, I see her so much less than before.
I’m starting to even hate my brother , and be mad at my mom for letting him use up everything she has. I’m scared to be around for the day he inevitably crashes her car or ruins it and then they need my support. Not be be selfish but I hope I live 10000 miles away when the next things happen. I know that won’t be the case, but I can start inching toward a free life.
I feel like shit saying this but I think I have given up on my brother , at least for now.