Is this abusive? I don't really know
I've been having a really bad week. To try and add context I'm supposed to be doing work experience in an office this week. Monday was fine, but stressful.. After that, it all went downhill I think. Tuesday was pretty bad, I managed to get to the office only to start crying in the lobby. I don't know if my boss realised I was crying but he did see me. That was probably the worst part. I ended up going home straight after. Wednesday was better since I didn't go to the office because I had an exam. By the end of the day I was physically exhausted though. Today (thursday) was probably the worst day since I couldn't even get out of bed.
Anyway, in response to me being unable to get out of bed, my mother stood over me for however long yelling at me to give her my phone. Eventually she gave up and just took my laptops (school, office and personal). She also took my chargers and even my headphone cable (but not my actual headphones??) She probably damaged my schoolbag in the process of trying to rip everything out as well.
Also she spam messaged me while I was asleep by sending me the emails she was writing where she told everyone what a failure I am. And their responses as well. And she's trying to twist an email from my maths teacher to make it sound like I'm failing (I'm not.)
This whole thing kind of feels like emotional abuse..? But I don't really want to label it as abuse since she's my mother yk. Also this isn't the first time she's done this kind of thing she always gets really mad when I can't go to school and takes away all my devices and threatens to cancel my sim card and stuff. It feels like she just doesn't understand why I'm so tired all the time and can only see me as lazy and selfish (which she is all too happy to emphasise mind you). Whenever I'm upset she has to make it about her, how I'm affecting her etc etc. It just makes me feel super shitty yk. The worst part is that she takes her own mental health out on me by being emotionally unstable and whenever she's depressed I'm supposed to not say anything but the second I'm showing pretty obvious signs of depression she turns into an aggressive asshole. It's like she can't even see me as anything other than a bad person, even though nearly all my mental health issues are probably genetic and her fault.
This kind of thing isn't isolated either. In the past she's tried to use my father's mental disorder (schizophrenia) to try and pressure me into going to bed earlier and tried to emotionally blackmail me in public. When that just backfired she kicked me out of the house and made me spend the week at his house instead. In fact, while I'm writing this she just emptied my bank account.