r/Weirdoteens

My sister told my mom that I was ftm one time I tried to kms and I feel like my mom has hated me even more ever since that but while I was in the hospital she said she didn't care what gender I was but I feel like she was just lying, because now any time I present as masc she always says something negative about it and she hates how I bind my chest and tells me that I'm not a man so I should stop trying to be one and almost everyday she talks about how she hates LGBTQ and gay ppl and she said "don't make me hate you too" which really hurt me, and other things she's said that have really hurt me include "I can't wait until you go on vacation with your dad so I can get a break from you" "I wish I never had you at all" "what are you even here for" "I'm useless/worthless and good for nothing" and anytime I make a mistake doing a chore she claims that I do it on purpose as revenge because apparently I'm mad that I have to do chores and then she calls me petty and a load of offensive slurs, and anytime she has to take me to a therapy appointment in the morning she complains and says "I could be getting stuff done right now but instead I have to go to therapy with crazy people" and she's super religious and is always talking about how God made men and women to be partners not so women could fuck other women or men fuck other men. She also said the reason God sank that city was because of ppl like me and idk what city she's talking about and she said I would know if I ever picked up a bible, my older sister isn't supportive either and constantly tells me I'm not a man, and my dad thinks the idea of changing genders is crazy nonsense but I don't talk to him much because he lives in a different country, also anytime I cry my mom says "men don't cry and I thought you were a man what happened" and she's the one that fuckin makes me cry and I've seen my dad cry at his mom's grave so I guess he's a woman now. She's so sexist about male stereotypes it's so annoying because if someone was sexist to her about women she would be so mad. And she's also racist to me because I'm the only mixed person in my family and she constantly calls me white and anytime I get in trouble she says it's because of my dad's white genes, atp I feel like she'll never accept me so I'm literally thinking about running away and living with my gf until I'm 18 or smth, sometimes I wish my mom would die or just disappear from my life. But ever since I tried to kms she doesn't beat me anymore so at least that's better

No, I’m not putting a picture of the wall nor my room here, you can just suggest a colour.

Also i guess you can suggest multiple colours cause i think that’d look cool too :>

Rn im considering some shade of blue or green, but I don’t know which shade :”)

I look like a living corpse, please help.

I’m a MtF girl (not out yet), and I’ve tried anything from dating apps like wizz and like irl dating and I just can’t seem to find anyone that is an ideal partner on the long term, I don’t have to find the love of my life but I really wish I could date someone or like go on dates with people.
All my friends have crushes or bf/gf, for me it seems like the more I look for one, the more I’m single, I’m low-key VERY sad about it idk

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