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It was very recently but I forgot to post about it until now, I’m so silly sometimes Owo

Funni glitch

Hai sillies, I was here idk maybe a month ago?? But you may know that well a month ago my grandfather was in a bad condition of bone cancer but today he felt really worse and had to be escorted to the emergency room at the hospital, after 5 hours my family comes back and they tell me the worst news that they lost him in the hospital… and I just immediately went and cried hard locking myself in my room, I SH myself 3 times but they weren’t deep, and now I’m still just absolutely depressed I don’t know what to do, my brain still can’t process it I just can’t believe this happened so sudden and so quickly, I’m trying my best to stay silly but I just can’t it’s too much to bear especially when I spent half my childhood there, my grandpa was the coolest person ever and I’m just, idk how to stay silly anymore :cc

(Also hehe I thought adding the United boykisser land would be funni :3

It’s me again :3. So Uhmm this is ig a part 2 of venting focused on what happened yesterday my best friend of 1 year just ghosts me for 8 days and yesterday he just blocked me without explanation, so it all started 9 days ago where he texted me if I wanted to play a game with him since we haven’t done so in a while but when he texted me that I was busy eating and at the same time I was a bit already stressed from my exams and stuff so I politely told him that I can’t because I’m eating and other reasons, he went dry and told me “I’ll go do something with my other friend then” I didn’t think much of it until he just went dry which I know him everytime he was dry it meant he was mad at me because he was never dry with me, and after a few hours he told me that he just went and played with his other friend, and then he just disappeared and by the next day he just kept ghosting me and ghosting me and I remembered he had a second account he once told me about I check it and it’s pretty active so I knew he was ghosting me over that, and yesterday I find out that he just blocked me with zero explanation why, one of his last texts he sent me before just disappearing and blocking me was a text saying that he needs some time with himself and said that he’ll come back and that’s all, i don’t know if it’s my fault that I didn’t play with him or his fault or neither.. I just really loved him he was the only friend I could be myself with, sadly we are distanced so we text and send reels all day, but we texted a lot and just so much, I could be myself around him and he was such a cool guy.
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I don’t even know where to start, first my best friend of 1 year just randomly decides to give up on me and stop texting me he ghosted me for 8 days before just blocking me today and giving no reason.. I loved him :(
Second ive been already stressing a lot lately and just being insanely lonely, yesterday I cried myself to sleep, and I spend most of the time in my room just overthinking or anxious, and the most painful part is my grandpa, one of the reasons I’m still silly and happy, my favorite member in the family but hes had bone cancer (stage 4 :(.. they found it late) for the past year and a half, and recently his condition has been getting really really worse and it’s killing me inside seeing him in such a bad position makes me wanna cry all day, and today with the fact that my best friend blocked me and just hearing my grandpa’s condition get worse and worse and just seeing it, ive been this depressed for a while now too so All of that pain and anxiety, I just couldn’t so I grabbed a razor blade and I… I did something bad I promised to stop.. 5 c*ts at my thigh and they burned badly and pained badly, I stopped the bleeding and treated it and I still haven’t told anyone about this I just don’t have anyone else to trust to tell them about it.. and in a few hours I’m gonna go take a shower to relax but I just know that these cuts are gonna fucking burn really badly so I just don’t know what to do anymore.. but I guess I should stay silly right?.. :3
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Yay suffering from trash diamonds :3

Original pic made with picrew :P