Yeh baat hai
Pata hai aaj kya hua I am (27M) dating my girl for three years now. We are on crossroads today or I should say I am with her. The dating began on a horrible note for the first one year she cheated on me with her best friend, then her school colleague (another fem teacher, my girl is bi) and she kept close contact with her ex for almost 1.5 years while being with me( secret lunch dates and shit) . The reason she has for all of this is that she came out of a healthy 8 years old relationship and the dude left her because he wanted to explore and moved to bangalore leaving our damsel in distress. So, to get validation she started getting physical with whoever she could. All this blood she bled on me for something her ex did to her.
All of this has mentally affected me pretty bad. I don't LIKE myself anymore. I have had a history of my own where I have tried everything for true love but all in vain. And three years ago I had hope, but I am back to where i began. I feel less of a man with her. She doesn't make me feel enough. I am fine when I am alone. The moment we are together everything bad hits me like a freight train and I feel a pain in my heart. I have been a good boyfriend. But I don't know what to do with myself now. I cant talk to her, she is extremely sensitive to the topic that she cheated and that too in our honeymoon phase.