Coping with Death Anxiety
I (29F) just lost my boyfriend (29M) to a sudden accident and it’s thrown me, a person who already had some level of death anxiety into a spiral. I’m having a hard time not despairing over the fact that someone so wonderful and thoughtful and intelligent can just be gone forever and I can’t stop thinking about the fact that I’ll eventually need to lose everyone I love and my own life. I fear the nothingness.
I’m not particularly religious and I find myself incredibly jealous of the faithful and the peace they are able to find in their confidence they will see their loved ones again. I don’t have a strong belief and I don’t have that confidence and it makes the concept of death really hard for me to accept.
I know that death is just something we can’t control or avoid and I know that we carry people with us in our memories and all that but it just doesn’t seem like enough. I really want to know from people who have found some peace in this idea what helped them reach that point.