I can’t do this
Yesterday I realised that I have a problem, a big one. I thought I wanted to drink every night cause I enjoyed being different and happier but it turns out I drank because I needed it. Today is my first day sober and I can’t do this. The cravings are so immense I start to burst out in tears and get panic attacks. I’m hovering over the order button since yesterday. It helped to delete all the apps and credit cards from my phone but I redownloaded everything. I went to the gym, I watched stuff, I started eating spicy food.. really anything that could help my mind calm down.
Tomorrow I’m trying to go to my first AA meeting and I’m scared. (It’s like a diagnose from a doctor you’ve been scared of even tho you already knew what you had)
Idk what to do
Edit: Thank you so so much to every single one that commented, it really makes the day go by easier now. I’m grateful for the support