u/atro_ici

Hi, I'm new to christopaganism, but I was raised Catholic. I had a deep connection with God, Jesus, and Mary; I loved them with all my heart. But I had problems with the church, and all my love was shattered. I've gone through a whole religious trauma and now I'm trying to heal from it. Now I'm devoted to Mary and Jesus; I've never felt more comfortable in my life. I've healed a lot and I love them again, without anyone else to hold me back. With Mary I feel completely comfortable, I'm not afraid, I adore her, and I know she loves me. But with Jesus I can't help but be afraid, to have that same feeling I had when I was little. I have a sort of negative image of Jesus. Deep down, I'm aware that he's not bad and that I love him and he loves me, but there's this part of me that tries to protect me from becoming afraid again. Is there any way I can overcome this fear? Any advice that could help me? Thank you so much, lots of love<3