u/auteur555

Every guru or awakened souls that takes this path seems to agree that we are all just fragments of source energy and we either incarnate over and over or just eventually merge back with source. This makes me feel like we aren’t really individuals but just temporary creations. Like I want to see my family again. Heaven to me is being with them in some compacity but it is unlikely I’ll ever experience them in this form ever again which makes death more difficult.

When we lose someone how do we even know they aren’t just on to some other family and life? Why are we pushed to just incarnate over and over when these lives are so difficult. Some of this even sounds like hell in some ways. We aren’t even real if we are just a small dream of a big conscious creator.

Does any of this make sense?

I have a niece who’s 21 with leukemia. She has been fighting it for three years. She has had two bone marrow transplants as she keeps relapsing. After the last relapse I had a spiritual awakening and learned about patterning and manifesting. I did gateway and got four other family members to manifest health for her. She was doing great and we were all amazed at how well everything was working but she has suddenly relapsed again and there is nothing else they can do. We are all confused as I had many times in gateway feeling like all would be well with her.
I should add my niece is one of the greatest people on the planet. She doesn’t even appear to be of this world her soul is so pure and amazing so it makes it harder