A good video sharing the resources to how to spread the word about educating people about the lies in the admin, and remember the positivs changes happening right now.
It can be a hard listen, but it did leave me optimistic at the end
i booted up tunic, and a light ringing started coming from my pc.
its never done that before. i recently installed some more ram, but ive been playing cyberpunk for like a month since then. i tried booting up some other games, ranging big and small, but no weird ringing. just tunic so far. and its fine with streaming and anything on my browser. im actually making this post on my pc right now.
is this concerning? and if so, what can i do?
It seems to me that an aspect of this life, which has veen aknowledged in buddhism, is that pain is unnavoidable, but the suffering is optional.
Note: what im gonna share is not me asking for persinal advice, but using myself as an example. I have plenty of resources i have used to stabilize myself, so please refrain from such resource suggestions.
Over the last two years, i have been going through a lot of pain. The death of my father, unemployment, living independently while finishing my bachelors, being sexually assaulted and getting PTSD, feeling deep fear and sorrow for the state of the world, coming to terms with parental abuse and their misuse of religion towards me, the list goes on.
In that pain, the times of which i feel in touch with the acceptiance of my reality as it is and the level to which i feel i am suffering fluctuates. When my father died, the fact i just had him in my life just brought me immense joy. But a year later, i just miss him. And with my parents and birth religion, i have grown not to hate either of them and regrow to love them, but they can still enrage me. For example, my parents tried to justify the murder of rene good and alex pretti, and the first time we talked, i raged at my mother. But the next time we called, i maintained my calm and she was the one to rage at me.
So much of what i feel is balance, acceptance, and being awake to my life feels feels very much like it wax and wanes. The three jewels and the eightfold path have helped me in alleviating the harder times, but its not always enough to quell me. Hell, sometimes the harder times for me is when life is less chaotic. Like knowing the punch is coming and struggling to accept sometimes i cant avoid it.
Maybe its just me needing to be better at accepting my mental pain. But as i am now with my practice, its hard for me not to see the masters, like the buddha and thich nhat hanh, also not having their moments of suffering even after decades of practice. Especially eith thich nhat hanh, watching so many of his peers be taken away so violently.
Trigger warning for child SA
Last nights dreams were weird. Its the night before i gotta turn in my capstone, so all sorts of stuff. Right before the part in mention, i dreamt about winning a switch 2 in a crane game (i dont even want a switch 2 irl).
Afterwards i was in an apoartment looking out a window and witnessed..... its hard even getting myself to type it out. I witness a man doing a workout routine..... with raping his 4 year old child as apart of the routine. And teaching another person to do the same to their child. What i saw in my dream was.... way too detailed
Afterwards, i went to a friend who was teaching a class and asked if i could talk to them. In my dream, i cried as i relaid this and asked for help on what to do. She consoled me and she said she would help me find what to do.
We go to the place, but theh are all gone. An old lady steps out and says she wants to help us, giving us the keys to the mans appartment. Nothing really happens thematically afterwards.
I feel like absolute revulsion. I cant believe my brain made those images in my head, and i cant get them out. Idk what i thought i was gonna do when confronting this man. My first thought when recalling this was that i was probably going there to kill him, but idk. Almost feel innadequate that i didnt.
Im really having a hard time and dont know what to do. All i wanna do is lay i. Bed all day, ignore work and my capstone, and just go away from the world. I know its normal for the brain to make fucked up dreams, but this is really taking the cake in terms of fucked up.
Idk what im asking for, but im really needing advice. Honestly anything. Even after meditating and practicing my distress techniques, i cant stop the images in my head from replaying.
Ramesses II, the same dude from the bible from over 3200 years ago, still has his body preserved to this day. Being one of the antagonists of the abrahamic religions, on top of everything else over the last 3000 years, it seems against the odds that his body would remain intact as long as it has.
In fact, it seems that the bodies of the first 6 generations of the Ramesses name have all also survived. How has this been possible, and what has prevented them from being destroyed over the different cultural generations?