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Perhaps this post is a bit much but-
I’ve been feeling like I’m constantly getting signs. I think part of me is looking for it so maybe that’s a reason, but it’s definitely something that makes my day and hurts all at the same time. The signs come from anywhere, even at work as you can see in the photo lol.
It doesn’t feel any easier than the day it happened and I don’t know what to do.
I miss him so much more than I ever thought I would
I’ve literally listened to his music every day since he passed, (although I already did when he was still here hence why he’s my top artist).
Grieving is not easy, and so much judgement seems to come from people who don’t understand and it often comes across as ‘cringe’ to others. He was so easy to relate to on a personal level and connect to, especially because of his big heart, talent, humour and intelligence.
I will always have so much love for him and his art.
I can’t even imagine how his family is feeling. I hope everyone is doing okay, especially those who knew him personally.

We miss you Oliver❤️

i’m going to insert a few pictures but i’ll talk about it all too.
oliver would’ve been 33 today as we all know and i’m so heartbroken. to celebrate his birthday i made a cake for him, wrote a letter and had a few drinks. i hope he’s having the time of his life up there.
the cake wasn’t perfect but i feel like that was in true oliver tree style. “ugly is beautiful” yk?
it took me a while and i decorated it to my liking. i played his music the whole time and sung my heart out.
i feel a little silly because I’m now an adult and maybe it comes across as immature but he has been a safe place for me for many years now as well as his music, videos and clips, and just him and his community.
there is so many people out there who love him and i love that we can connect over it. being able to find that comfort in it all is something truly special. i know that he’s gone and i am trying to pretend like i’m okay or that i’ve fully accepted it when that’s not true, but i am glad that he lived all his life to the fullest and got to do so much while he was still here. it’s good to think about what did happen rather than what could’ve happened.
im thinking of getting a tattoo about him soon. im just trying to find what to get if anyone has ideas❤️
i encourage you guys to do something for his birthday! even something small like playing a song. i miss him more than anything and as my number one artist he definitely deserves a cake.
i hope he knew how loved he was. i will miss him every day 🫰