u/axelmames09

i don't want to write a bible, but i can telling all the story which is short but i felt way longer. before starting i am argentinian living in israel and
1: pls understand my bad english and my bad storytelling
2: don't hate and don't relate my country and religion with the story

i am 16 and in the second to last grade (11th or 12th i think) in israel we do a trip where we learn values of the religion and of ourselves and the others. in this group, where we are around 30 people boys and girls, a girl i only knew her face and thought she was weird for being shy (something stupid) was with us. then i learned she had argentinian family and in the second day of the trip we were matched to do a game about telling each other as much as you can in 1 minute and an other fun game, so i realized she isn't weird she is cool even if she is shy. then one of the last days like day 6 we walked a lot of distance to go back to our rooms from a part of the city to an other, like 2h. in the last 40m all the group was talking, which is me, her and other boys and girls like 10 overall. we started talking together, shearing experiences in school and what we do, our family, we talked a little bit in spanish and it was the conversation that made me feel something. i got nervous when i realized we walked accidentally at the same speed and we were far from the group of friends. then the last day an activity was done where each person was selected and someone he didn't know before the trip had to stand up and say something nice to him. after a lot of thinking i didn't say nothing to this girl because it would have been weird in front of everyone, i am a little bit shy ngl. but i felt bad about this, so after this, when everyone was doing their suitcases and i already finished, i looked for her to tell her i didn't know her but she is a beautiful person and i was happy to know her better. the moment i say that she says "i swear i was a out to tell you the same thing" and i was happy as fuck. later we all went to a party after the trip ended and i drank to much so i was hugging everyone, so before leaving i hugged her and said i love you but not in a romantic way, more like in a friendly way. after that, nothing. absolutely nothing. i moved to her class of computer science to talk a little bit more and we talked but not much and we are "friends" but just hallway friends you know. the case is that next year we don't have computer science, and i have no excuse to talk to her now. the last day after the last exam of the year i ended the computer science test, i wasted time talking with friends until she finishes and when i was giving up after waiting like 15 minutes she finished. now, with an excuse, we went the same way for 10 minutes and i had the golden chance to at least say what i feel, but i wanted to leave the computer science subject and she kept talking about it, she was also hurrying because she needed to go to a training and i felt she wasn't chill. finally our ways separated, i had to walk 10 minutes + 10 minutes back home because of the unnecessary walk and i don't know what to do, that was a month ago, i can't forget her because my intuition and my heart tell me that she is the right one but i am a pussy i admit it. i just wanted to hear your tips, maybe similar stories and idk, everything is welcome

sorry for the unnecessary long text, it's 5:44 am the mood is sad and i remembered this